I've been sick again for a few days. Imagine that. The lack of sleep I've been having for a while finally caught up to me. So much shit has been going on, that it's impossible for me to tell up from down anymore ( Read more... )

Holidays truly do suck. It doesn't matter how hard I try to make it otherwise. Pat's mom passed away today. What a horrible start to a New Year. I'd do anything for this boy. Anything. I wish I could take it all away.

Wow, I haven't been here in a long long time. I just wanted to come back and see if anyone is still around.

I just read all my posts on LJ. Wow. I have some issues, haha

Crazier things have NOT happened. haha

Except for the 8th

I'm so tired of not doing anything right.

Bill and my mom told me to call my doc last week because I couldn't eat. Couldn't even hold down medication long enough for it to dissolve. I lost 10 lbs. Blah blah... So I called and told her what was going on, and she told me to go right to the emergency room. I did, and then they hooked me up to IVs and heart monitors and I got an EKG and ( Read more... )

My mom is going to the murderer's hearing tomorrow. I told her I don't know why she would want to go. I don't quite understand why she wants to be in the same room. I just don't get it ( Read more... )

I finally called the Behavioral Health center at the hospital. I spoke to them for like 15 minutes. Just by what I said, they could describe the way I've felt for the past three months. Damn. I'm gonna cry again. It's getting really old... and difficult to control tears just coming out of my face. It's annoying ( Read more... )

Ok... I talked to Tina's sister last night. She called and we talked for a little while about... autopsy photos and things of the nature I am not mentally good to hear. I told her about "how I am" right now when she asked me. You know, I thought I was within the "normal" range until I found out that I'm not ( Read more... )

Been a long time ( Read more... )