I've been in a major funk the past few weeks, but after talking to my dad on Friday I've been feeling better.  He helped put things into perspective, and he really hit everything that I was feeling on the head.  So, that was reassuring.  I've been so burnt out, depressed, and unmotivated.  Part of it is probably senioritis, but it's just that on ( Read more... )

Last night was fantastic.  It was so good to to hang out with everyone. :)

I did my best to ignore all that insecurity bullshit, that feeling that i don't belong or don't fit in, etc., and it turned out pretty well.  I just had a bit too much to drink, which didn't hit me until after I smoked...haha but what did i expect, right?   ugh,  speaking ( Read more... )

Second day back to the grind has been pretty decent.  Senior Seminar will be a pain in the ass, but at least Art Structure is good times.  I go from literary rigidity in the morning to an afternoon of feeling and fleshing out and basically just letting things happen....from one extreme to the other

Tuesday and Thursdays are going to be long - ( Read more... )

Can't sleep and my mind is racing, so I figured I'd write an entry. 
I'm trying to be optimistic, but it's just not working.

Another term of going through the motions and likely one to end up yet again in pathetic mediocrity. 
The only thing I really accomplished last term was losing some weight. And it's not like that was much of an accomplishment. ( Read more... )

I've pondered this time and time again, but I still can't figure it out: What is it about this place that makes it so hard to breathe? I'm sick of all the assholes who don't value kindness. I'm sick of being made to feel inferior. I'm sick of being tired and stressed all the time. I'm sick of being mediocre. It's only the first day of the ( Read more... )

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I hope everyone's having a great break and happy holidays etc. I'm ready to go back to Alma like whoa ( Read more... )

Well, I got my car trouble taken care of by noon today. Turns out all it needed was a good jump from a tow-truck. I was relieved it wasn't a bigger problem. Went straight to my dad's, got to see my dad, stepmom, sister, played with my bro andrew and felt the most alive i've been in weeks, and got to see my bro ben for like 5 minutes as i was ( Read more... )

here we are in greenville, south carolina. oh sorry, i just started typing what i heard. i'm starting to feel ok, especially since i took my medication today. i was bad and didn't take it for a few days, just because i couldn't find it, not because i was just choosing not to take it. i'm continuing to think about what i want to do after i'm ( Read more... )

just took a test worth 25% of my grade in Personality...on like 2 and a half hours of sleep...and the only studying i did for it was in the wee hours of the morning in a semi-conscious state. needless to say, i'm hella worried ( Read more... )