So after waking up thursday and feeling like i was going to die, nausea, dizzyness, weak and disoriented i acctually ate, i still kept it healthy but i probably ate close to or around 800-1000 cals... then yesterday good friday, got up had a bowl of cornflakes with soy milk then went to the gym for an hour and a half class and worked my ass off... ( Read more... )

Today has been a good day so far... All I have had was a small bowl of bran and a banana this morning, nothing all day at uni, except a coke zero, and i just had a sugarfree V because i'm going to taikwondo and needed a boost... plus shit loads of water... On the way home from uni i bought at the supermarket some plain tofu, sugarfree jelly and ( Read more... )

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Sometimes i wish i could just scream and let people know how i am really feeling, bt it's not that easy... Mum just had a go at me about how i never want to go out any more, well there are many reasons for that, I am constantly stressed with school work and study, I don't feel like i am as close to my friends since i left high school, p.s they all ( Read more... )

Okay so I guess i can literally feel myself commin out of recovery, i have probably been denying it for about a month, slowly and surely i found myself returning to all my old haunts, lj esspecially, then today i acctually posted pics of myself in thinspiration, which was a huge step for me... i can;t believe this Ed is taking over my life yet ( Read more... )

Worked all day today, was so tired then i had my "lunch" break... yeh right ( Read more... )

I hate the weekend... Stayed at my friends last night convinced her to go on a 1 1/2 hr walk which was good, then stayed up till 3 talking was good to spend some time together, got home at 11 today felt like shit so had a little bit of muslie and yoghurt, then it got to like 4.30 and i had a peach and a carot, then like an hour later my dad was ( Read more... )

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Okay so today went like this... woke up at 6.30am, had a shower tried to avoid parents but in doing so only made it more obvious i wasn't eating my usual breakfast so comprimised and had a small bowl of natural yoghurt(60ish calories) with banana and almonds, didn't eat it all though so my guess is probably about 150 cals? Then managed to not eat ( Read more... )