As I was reading this chapter I had two very different emotions running around in my head. One was that at least Mack has made up with Amaranth and seems happy, so "Yippie!" And the other is somewhere between shaking my head and having little question marks flying around because I'm not sure that this is really going to turn out to be a good thing for Mack. But I guess 'different strokes for different folks' or something along that line and Mack seems both happy and able to show a bit more resolve - which is definitely a good thing. Well that's about all I have to say about the chapter. As always good writing and VERY interesting characters.
What I'm wondering is if so much of Mack's desire for humiliation and domination come from her not having a healthy childhood, than as she learns to 'fix' herself, how much of these desires will be left? Once she stops being ashamed of sex, how much will she want the spankings? Once she learns to stand up for herself, how much will she need the security of "belonging"?
If she was a sort of "always in charge" type, and wanted the contrast to unwind, then I could see it lasting, but it seems to me that all the reasons she has for wanting this sort of a relationship are tied to things that she needs to overcome.
Hey, if you like spankings THAT much, you just like spankings. But her mind shift will probably shift to make them nice (at least when not intended to be punishments) instead of shameful when she figures that stuff out.
Re: Belonging
anonymous
August 14 2007, 18:12:42 UTC
I'd like to point out that a thing doesn't need to be permanent in order to be good for you. Kenzie needs breaking out of her self-destructive though patterns, and Amy seems like just the person to do it. To me, this seems very much like the kind of relationship you sometimes get with your first bf/gf. At least, it was for me (sans some of details) Amy provides a base where Kenzie feels safe and loved. This will support her if/when she decides to tear down all of her boundaries and make new ones. It might keep her from going mad eventually. It's a stage in her development, and an era in her life, and it is good for her, but it's not necessarily permanent.
Also, if she does break those though patterns, she may stop seeing the "dirty" things she likes now as wrong or perverted. She could learn to enjoy them for their own sake, and not just because they are "punishments."Though, if she continues to be a humiliation glutton, she might get a more... interesting reputation. *giggles* I can't wait!
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anonymous
August 14 2007, 04:36:04 UTC
There should deffinatly be a comic made from this story. That last scene with her walking down the hall, I could see all the angle's. Some looking into the open doorways as she passed them, and that last bit would make a great 2 page spread for a last page.
Having her walk down the hall, with the point of view being behind her, about 4-5 yards back, about level with her knees, allowing you to see 1 or 2 of the girls poking thier heads out thier doors in a bit of confusion, all the while the last little bit being in 4 sepearte bubbles. 'I belong', above her head to the left. 'I'm in Love' just below it on her right. 'It... It's not the same as being normal... not by a long shot' placed somwhere below the other 2, and finnaly, 'But it feels... Kinda nice...' below her feet in place of the floor. It's times like this I was a better artist than I am a visualizer. I'd do it for no other reason that it would be an amazing pet project. -K.C.
Wow ... This was a powerful chapter. I really felt sympathy for Mackenzie when she said "It's just... it's a lot easier for me to accept being hated than being loved," Having had a real self-esteem problem (as in I had negative self esteem) at one time of my life, I sort of know how she feels.
And now we have to wait for the start of the next book. *sigh* Oh well, good things are worth waiting for.
I recognise thisunisagiAugust 15 2007, 22:34:42 UTC
I second what she is unisagi is saying here. As in, feeling sympathy for Mackenzie about what she said and having had problems of that kind myself. I must have missed quite a few chances (of friendship/love/whatever) by thinking I never had one to start with.
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If she was a sort of "always in charge" type, and wanted the contrast to unwind, then I could see it lasting, but it seems to me that all the reasons she has for wanting this sort of a relationship are tied to things that she needs to overcome.
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Also, if she does break those though patterns, she may stop seeing the "dirty" things she likes now as wrong or perverted. She could learn to enjoy them for their own sake, and not just because they are "punishments."Though, if she continues to be a humiliation glutton, she might get a more... interesting reputation. *giggles* I can't wait!
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Having her walk down the hall, with the point of view being behind her, about 4-5 yards back, about level with her knees, allowing you to see 1 or 2 of the girls poking thier heads out thier doors in a bit of confusion, all the while the last little bit being in 4 sepearte bubbles. 'I belong', above her head to the left. 'I'm in Love' just below it on her right. 'It... It's not the same as being normal... not by a long shot' placed somwhere below the other 2, and finnaly, 'But it feels... Kinda nice...' below her feet in place of the floor. It's times like this I was a better artist than I am a visualizer. I'd do it for no other reason that it would be an amazing pet project. -K.C.
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And now we have to wait for the start of the next book. *sigh* Oh well, good things are worth waiting for.
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As in, feeling sympathy for Mackenzie about what she said and having had problems of that kind myself.
I must have missed quite a few chances (of friendship/love/whatever) by thinking I never had one to start with.
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