Well for like the longest time ever, for as long as I can remember I have felt down and alone. And I was dealing with it. I didn't tell many people, only a few friends knew. But for a while now, I was starting to get sick of dealing with it and started taking steps in my own direction. Doing shit that people might call crazy and doing shit that ( Read more... )

Well I have not written in here in a really long ass time. I'm sorry. But nothing has really been going on or anything. Although I have started college and I thought I would like it... but I don't. I hate it. I know no one... and I don't want to be there. The only thing keeping me there is the fact that my dad has already paid for it. But I ( Read more... )

Well hello. Today has been wonderful, that is until I got home from church. I come home to find out that my dad needs to talk to us. Well in this "meeting" he proceeds to tell us... my brothers and I, that he is going to marry this lady. Well... just in case you have forgotten... but our mom just died a year ago. I mean... what kind of shit is ( Read more... )

well it is the first official day of spring break. And guess what I did. I got to stay home and clean house. Oh... just how I wanted to start my break off. Woohoo. I have always dreamed of my spring break consisting with me cleaning house all day long while my brothers are out and about doing whatever the f**k they feel like. You know...? ( Read more... )

Today was pretty cool. Instead of going to school this morning I decided to skip school. I skipped b/c I have to research some stuff about a guy from the Bible. So instead of learning a bunch of useless stuff... I spent my day studying the Word of God. It was pretty exciting. I found out some stuff I didn't know and was reminded of some things ( Read more... )

Last night I went skating with my friend Kali and her sister, and her sister's friend. I forgot what her name was... but thats not the point. So anyways. I am skating around with Kali when all of a sudden I look up and see this girl named Amy. For those of you who don't know... me and Amy used to date. Well sort of... we both liked each other ( Read more... )

Tonight. I am setting at church right... and I am all trying to do my thing. But I just couldn't. I don't know if you all have that problem... but I do. It was like something was in the way the whole time. But it turned out okay b/c later on after it was over... I went out to the hallway and wrote in my journal and got everything out. I love ( Read more... )

I don't know why... but I struggle so much with jealousy. Like when I hear about my friends going out and doing stuff... but I don't get invited... I just get upset. And it's not even that big of a deal. But whatever... it's just me being stupid and wanting to take part in everything. You know...? I just thought of that because my brother was ( Read more... )

Today (Saturday) was tons of fun... I think it has been the longest day of my whole life. I didn't go to bed until 7 in the morning... then I was awaken by my dad at 10 so I could help him clean the house. Then I went to my friend Tyler's house and hung out for a while. Then after that. I went to Wal-mart to get some eye liner and then I ( Read more... )

Ugh... today I am eating lunch with this girl that I have the crush on, and we are talking and eating just doing what people do at lunch you know. Then she is like, did I ever tell you what Tyler said. FYI-Tyler is her ex-boy friend. And I said I think. Well it ends up with her telling me that Tyler was like... I think I still like you. So ( Read more... )