i don't know what to do!!! Becky thinks i should ask Chris to Vice. i want to, but i am scared. what if he says no? but then if i don't.. i know i'll regret it. so i lose anyway. i don't know why everyone is thinking bout this. its not til March .its not like its tomorrow, but then its like you have to plan ahead. ugh!! i really don't know what ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to chucky chesses for my lil sisters party. omg!!! so fun!!! i am such a loser though. i was like singing and playing the games, but wutever. i was having such a blast.. i didn't want to leave. oh...and there was this really hot guy there. He has brown hair and hes tall..like 5'7 or something and he was helping this other girls ( Read more... )

ugh! i hate my parents!!!! My stepmom is thinking bout sending me to private school and my dad was thinking bout hawaii, but my stepmom doesn't want to send me to hawaii.i don't know if they are still thinking bout it but its all cuz of my attutide and my grades. they hate it and they want to get rid of me cuz of it. wow! i don't feel loved. i mean ( Read more... )

i don't know who i am anymore. i used to be this happy girl..all the time. i always had a simile on my face, even if i was having a bad day. Now, things seem so different. i feel so different. i am not the same little girl. i have changed,at least i think so. i am starting to scare my mom Alot!!! She's worried im gonna run away.. my dad and stepmom ( Read more... )

My mom made up her mind and shes really going to hawaii. shes moving at the end of febuary. This fucking sucks!!! my dad won't let me go and i really want to!!! i would miss you all, but i kinda think its pointless for me to stay here. whats the point in staying here and making everyone pissed off cuz im always depressed? plus, it might be good to ( Read more... )

i am really jealous!!!!! yesterday, Ann, Chris and i were hanging out....having a blast and i don't know but this certain point, i got so jealous. i don't know why!!! i just did. and now Ann likes Chris and i think Chris likes Ann and it sucks to be me. I am happy for Ann if she likes him and they go out, but then its like i'm not. i don't know how ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my birthday. It was ok... could of been better. it wasn't cuz of the finals. it was just my parents. They made me so pissed off i was ready to leave. they just bothered me about the fucking finals, they didn't listen to me. but oh well. i took pics but i can't find the fucking cd thing so i cant put pics in here yet, but i will try ( Read more... )

i need someone to talk to. i need a shoulder to cry on.. i need a friend so bad. i can't talk to chris about this cuz its about him. we all know that i have liked him since 7th grade..right? well.. i thought i was over him, but today i have come to realize i am not and the thing is i like Andrew, but now i think i like chris alot more. so its all ( Read more... )

When i was born, the nurse said " AWW!! she's so pretty ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF MY LOVES... ROB BOURDON (DRUMMER OF LINKIN PARK)!!!!! He's 26 unless i did the math wrong..which i probably did. he's so hot!!!! hehehehehehehehehehehe... yea anyways.... tomorrow Amit and i are gonna try to dress up like sluts!!!! maybe amit will be the only one or maybe it will be just me.. who knows!! Amit u have to ( Read more... )