i can't explain it. its just something i want to do, but i know everyone(well not everyone but most of my friends) would miss me to much. no im not talkin about killing myself. i wouldn't do that, even though i want to, i just won't. i don't even know if its offical or wut is going on. All i know is my dad is pissed at me... i guess he should be ( Read more... )

omg! yesterday was fun!!! i reallty needed to have fun, i was like ready to sneak out of my house on friday, but i had no where to go...wait.. i should of gone to chris house. god damn it!!! why didn't i think of that?!!! oh well...i went to Stefanies house with Ann and then we went to carls jr and blockbuster and then we tried to buy a lighter, ( Read more... )

School was so werid!! the police were there cuz of this gun thing... i am so confused about that, but wutever and then in math, we were playing this game and jacob(senior whos a tutor and hot.. i think..well not really.. i donno) was on my team and he is so not smart!!!! he got this one problem wrong and he tried to tell me the answer to this one ( Read more... )

i really hate my life!!! my parents are being the biggest asses ever!! i am trying hard to think my life doesn't suck and yea but god damn my parents!!! they just wanna ruin my life. they took the internet away from me just cuz i missed school today and didn't work on my fucking english project and all of a sudden i wanna drop out of school. I didn ( Read more... )

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i just realized something. whenever it rains... im always depressed. i haven't been really depressed but all of a sudden when it rains... i am depressed. i don't feel loved anymore from anyone...not even my own family..well maybe layla but she doesn't really count cuz shes two and she loves everyone. I am sick of everyone making fun of me. ( Read more... )

Nothing is going my way!!! it never goes my way. You know how my bday is around the corner( well not really like 2- 3 weeks away)..well there might not be a party this year or we might but it wont be a big one or i might go to the snow with my family and maybe 5 friends, but it all depends on money!!!!! My parents say we are low on money!!! i hate ( Read more... )

i didn't go to school today if anyone noticed cuz my cousins were here and it was there last day and they just wanted to spend more time with me. My parents actually let me stay home..i was surprised so while you all were in boring school being bored out of your mind missing me.... i was sleeping til about 10 something and singing karoke and doing ( Read more... )

i am a little better, just in case anyone want to know. I couldn't survive without Chris and the weridest thing was when i found out about Andrew and his gf thing i was crying alot and chris was just typing away making me laugh and all of a sudden i had this big simile on my face, which was strange, but good.kinda pissed at some people thinking he ( Read more... )