Ok so i'm home again. You know I'm so thankfull for kelly? I really am. He makes me feel like the most amazing girl on the planet. Just because I'm his. He wants me to meet the people in his life, he likes doing things with me like puzzles and silly monopoly games that he can kick my ass at lol... but it just makes me so... comfortable? safe? happy ( Read more... )

I just realized how unhappy I was when I was with ricky, and how sad a lot of my entries were. goodness... well I'm glad that I'm happy now :-) But it's still like... wow, I should have guessed it. You know? Anyways. that's good to realize. work now.

As is rum... had no idea I liked it, but Kelly's family decided to expose me to said fact. It was my first real shot (not like some shitty beer) and it was deliciously amazing. Indeed lol ( Read more... )

Ok... so... Kelly Happens to be amazing. In every way possible. I spent 3 days with him... straight thru... and i'm just as happy as can be. I figured i'd be pretty sick of him by the end of those days... but i want more lol. It's like i'm addicted to a drug... and he's sweet and caring and honest and doesn't do drugs and has a real job and a house ( Read more... )

So i'm really glad this thing with Kelly is going so well. No, like REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY glad lol. Never been so comfortable being honest with someone. And he doesn't expect me to do it myself, be straight up that is. He understands that i need somethings dragged out ( Read more... )

Bright Green Eyes ( Read more... )

So currently my heart is exploding. hopefully i'll get past that. can't say i blame him for wanting rid of me and not letting me be his friend on here anymore. it just hurts. That's what i get... and i'll have to live with it. yeah i know it'll be better for me, but i still can't help but feel like and idiot. I hope he finds what he wants or is ( Read more... )

i now see that things that apply to me don't apply to him... or you. or her. cool. now... just let me go away... and think my thoughts. and say my thoughts. and do what i want and not give a shit about what you think. i feel like i've been hypocratized. everyone know what hypocritical means. now, being hypocratized is like when you're the victim ( Read more... )

No, it really was. Despite all the working i did. Friday night, i worked. but i had a good time. i stayed late, and helped out in the kitchen and was just in general pretty comfortable and in a good mood. Saturday... was in this sick way awesome. I worked a double, then stayed after until around 2am and helped dust and paint the ceiling. It was ( Read more... )

Because i have. there's been 4 doubles this week. and i don't mind all the working... but good grief. and i've been working 2 jobs, one at O'charley's, which suck big time, and one at pizza inn that i love dearly but will not help me make any money really... and that's why i haven't been on here in such a very long time. like 2 or 3 weeks maybe? ( Read more... )