i build ice walls as soon as i open doors.
one mistake. wall built.
be sweet to me and perhaps, perhaps...

i'll crack open the door.♥

so i've decided that if san francisco doesnt work out for me, berkeley is going to be my second choice. i fucking love it there. i like to go there to robin and adam's to get the fuck away from petaluma drama. when im there i feel like i have nothing to worry about. there is nothing like getting trashed at night and then waking up the next morning ( Read more... )

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shall i resort to my way of life that i had back in september? thats a risky move. if you only knew what my life was like in september.

i feel like ripping heads off of people.
i want to move.
im so fucking sick of this place.
im going to explode.

GAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA...fattmatt as the cheerleader....!!!!!!

so im drunk, but when am i not? fuck. so i told someone something that i really wish i hadnt tonight. id seriously only told 2 people about this thing. thats the only thing i dont like about being drunk, i spill secrets at times. woops. well at least it doesnt have to do with anyone else but myself. oh god. im so wasted. oh wait ( Read more... )

Wish enough, wise man'll tell you a lie ( Read more... )

ok so i want to go camping now. i want to see Finding Neverland. I want to go to Berkely soon. i want my heart shaped flask. i want to stop being confused. i want to move. or go to paris. im feeling a period of isolation coming on. i need to fucking buckle down in my english and math classes. i should start playing my guitar again. i need more time ( Read more... )

oh god. i think i have to get it removed. i think i might just cry. and i never cry. i am really fucking sad about this. my first little tatt may soon be gone. unless i find a new home to stay in. oh god. someone please help me!!!!