Sometimes things hit me in a really profound and/or unexpected way. I've been in somewhat of a tailspin for the last week or so, and it's definitely not a comfortable feeling. I'm emotionally drained. I'm just trying to figure out this crazy thing called life. 

The past week has been really rough for me.

Someone I know from high school was diagnosed with late-stage colon cancer this past summer. She and her family remained optimistic and kept us all updated via her blog. Last Tuesday, there was a post from her brother saying that the cancer had spread and she was far too weak to undergo anymore chemo or ( Read more... )

I've been feeling overwhelmed and overworked for quite some time now, but it all didn't boil over until yesterday. I had myself a good cry and I got through it, but it felt awful. It was by far the worst I've felt in a very long time. :(

On a happier note, Friday night was awesome. I met Jasmine for dinner and wound up having drinks, too. What's ( Read more... )

Days like today make me lose sight of why it is I worked so hard to get my life back on track.

It's amazing how quickly things can turn sour. :(

Sometimes I honestly wonder what the hell is wrong with me. On days like today -- or actually, nights like tonight -- I come home from work and give serious thought to whether I'll ever get the things I want most out of life. Pondering the possibility, or what often feels like the probability, that I never will leads me down a path I've regrettably ( Read more... )

Something's definitely wrong...I just wish I knew what. 

I had concrete plans for the upcoming holiday season, which are now being ruined by my brother.

Thanksgiving weekend was supposed to be wonderful -- Nick and I would stay at my grandma's house and celebrate Thanksgiving there with my mom and her new boyfriend. The next day, we'd spend some time with my mom and my grandma, then head over to my dad's ( Read more... )

Today was my last day working at Hallmark. I quit two weeks ago (for the second time in a little over a month, but this time there was no guilting me into coming back) and today was my last day. I will miss some of the customers, some of my former coworkers, the store itself, but I will certainly not miss the poor way the business was run or the ( Read more... )

On Monday night (August 20th), Nick and I celebrated our six-month anniversary by going out to a fancy dinner. While we had a great time there, it wasn't the food or the drinks that made my day -- it was the gift he gave me. He presented me with two promise rings -- one for me, one for him -- that signify our commitment to each other. As if the ( Read more... )