My mind is so full of different thoughts and feelings, I cant even organize them to write about, much less talk to anyone about. This has never happened. Its like a thorny rose bush in there.

Just one question sits on the outside of that scary mess... How do I become good enough? 

 I'm deciding to give up on some of my dreams. They only make me miserable. Whatever happens happens. Maybe once reality actually becomes reality for me, the reality check wont hit as hard.

Once upon a time, there was a man and a women who were married. She was a beast and he was a beauty.he gave her beautiful daughters and a home and food and a car and money to live off. Then one day she was bored so she decided she wanted to do something else with her life and literally threw everything away ( Read more... )

Here is the Mother's Day video I made in May. It is arranged in the order that it flows on the dvd. Warning: we are all very weird.
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my mom changes her last name so she changes the name on the caller id to. THAT makes me MADDDDDDD

i will lose weight. im sick of being overweight. i want to be active & not just want to sit all the time. i dont want to see any buldges or anything when i look in the mirror. i dont want to have to feel uncomfortable when chris rubs my back ( Read more... )

i love chris so much.

my neck hurts sooo bad ( Read more... )

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