So, in other news... Crap.

Why do things like these always happen to me? Repeatedly, even? Is it bad luck or just..? Just me, not being able to resist obsessing over pretty things.

Why do I even bother to care to look? I shouldn't have looked... yet again. Just goes to prove how weak I actually am, when it comes to irrelevant things like that. ( Read more... )

Tomorrow (or the day after) - my last chance.

I know...

It's not nearly enough to just want something to happen... Plus, if it really is such a big deal to me as I make it seem, I should probably try to do something about it... or possibly not, as I just don't seem to be that kind of person ( Read more... )

Eh, not to sound overly dramatic but... This couldn't possibly get any worse ( Read more... )

... On a rather random note, I realized I'm actually quite shallow (in a non-conventional way though), and that realization makes me feel so much better, mainly about myself... as it makes everything much simpler.

Actually, it's not that I'm exactly shallow, it's just that most of the time I can't really be bothered to pay much attention to other ( Read more... )

( ...breaking these mirrors to end all I've seen... )

I'm not really sure if I'm disappointed - even if I am, it is me I'm disappointed in - but I certainly had a rather shitty time.

And, I hate myself again, after such a long period of time... I almost started to miss that familiar comfort of self-loathing, but now it's all back. I hate myself for not being at least slightly bit more talkative, and ( Read more... )

I just know I'm going to get so disappointed tomorrow...

... I think that, in a way, I miss the way I used to be two or three years ago.

... I think I even miss talking to the people I used to talk to at the time.

... it's all quite ridiculous really...

Things keep reminding me of other meaningful things, yet it's all to vague and I don't know what is actually going on with my senses.

The most difficult kind of dilemma is where you basically have to predict what a random person will do, in order to know whether you should do something or not. What's really odd is the fact that the choice should be more than simple, and if it weren't for one thing that keeps bothering me, I wouldn't even need to bother thinking about the whole ( Read more... )