I can't promise myself I won't care ( Read more... )

I cut out half my lungs for you.
I sacrifice my breath.
Pick me up, I'm bleeding for you
Last resort to resolve you grudge.
Wait alone in the dark for you.
The sun has left me sky.
So swift to leave me behind.
I bleed myself dry.
I can't fall asleep.

What the fuck have I been waiting? Nothing really. The friends are leaving. One by one. Can't wait till I stop breathing, let the rope snap tight. She thinks I wanted sex, what the fuck ever. I really don't know why I thought of her so much. I hope she is happy, I know I wish I could have died happy. O((((((X(((((((I((((((C(((((((O(((((((T((((((I ( Read more... )

You always used to say, that I was just too much, but now I'm not enough ( Read more... )

I'm running over the same grounds, waiting. Was this all for nothing, did she mean everything? Sometimes I know I've fucked up. This time, I know its fucked up. I wish I knew what was going on. Twice, she knows she played it out. Saying sorry won't mean a thing. Nothing matters when putting her first. But I guess it made things look much worse than ( Read more... )

Tell me why
what you want,
is not what you need.
She is tearing me down.
"Just leave her alone"
Uphold,
and let go.
She is tearing me down,
tearing me down.
I hope you find what your looking for.
Closed eyes, open mouth,
then go find yourself.
Your tearing me down,
tearing me down.

I caught myself, before I did it. I almost jumped off. Let it snap tight. I wish she would tell me, if she wants us to be over. I am going insane. This is the second time she has done this, but this time I am going to wait. I know if I would have done it I would have lied to her. I can't handle that, I love her , she knows, still I don't know why ( Read more... )

I hurt myself, badly. I feel pain from my chest right down the the back of my broken hand. I'm sorry, but left one out. I found a rope, a cut, a scar, but can't have what I want. Good things never last forever. Why do the only thingfs that make sense to me make me feel like this? Never thought I"d be alone for christmas. Talk is for nothing, not ( Read more... )

Wake up now, its over.
Just tell me its ok to die.

I swear, she is everything. If I could take her pain right now I would. But I can't, all I can do is be there for her. Show her that I will always be here for her, cuz I always will.