so...............................today i dont think iv felt worse in a long time.....all walking fitness i felt such anger and such sadness at the same time...

i wanted to scream at the top of my lungs "FUCK"

i ruin everything...everyones plans. everyones life..everything..

most of all i ruin my own life

we should be back to back.. so then ( Read more... )

id give anything right now to have someone within my arms, so i can look into her beautifull eyes..

so im kinda really pissed now.. OMFG ( Read more... )

one of the reasons i think it wont pull throu is cause derek might all of a sudden go and then jessica will have to go wit him.. and i will get ditched, but i guess if it happens i deserve it because i feel terrible for "ditching" christina. i duno a better word.. but still....

lo siento

i feel fucked.screwd. pissed. angry. pathetic, tiresome, stressed, feared ( Read more... )

its been one hell of a week. and hell it has been indeed ( Read more... )

break my heart and lets start over...

repeat what was done and forget it ever was.

i just want you

if it means loosing me..

tear me inside out

never cared for anything but you anyway..

ill bleed eternally just for a second with you

next time im online is friday

grounded from internet for a week is fun. and being bombarded by coments like im a jerk and rude etc..etc..,. is fun... why do i bother

this boy walks into the stormy night... rain drips onto his head... nothing can make him flinch... he is consumed by apathy... lightning raging in the background ( Read more... )