I've been single for a year and a half now. I want it to stay this way. Its funny how this who year I have been trying to get back together with my ex......

When the whole time, I wasn't happy with him the way it was. I love him........

But I don't think I'm in love with him.

I feel like a jerk. I feel like someone but their arm through my chest, ripped out my heart and stomped on it. I've never felt this way before in my life. A cold heartless bitch. Yeah, thats what i am ( Read more... )

so if the chain is on your door, i understand..

welll. Today was very awkward!!

I was so anxious, i had to take a few shots to calm me down. It worked though. Now i'm calm. Uhm... yeah.

that caught me by surprise. it didn't go well either.

You have to know, this is driving me insane.. absolutly insane ( Read more... )

uhm.. hahaah wow.

I really don't know how i existed in the past. My journal enteries were pathetic. ...
absolutly pathetic.

hahahahaha really all i can do is be embaressed for myself. pathetic. hahahahaha wow. im such a loser.

Wow, goodbye 2009. You came and left so quickly ( Read more... )

Things are slowly improving. I hope it keeps getting better. Everyone is telling me it should end. I really dont want it to, nor do i think running away is the best option. After all the shit, we've been through and made it through we're still togetther. And i think getting out may just be a dumb decision. I dont know. I guess i really thoought ( Read more... )

That's NOT funny.

How would you react if someone told you, that you made them feel like they are trapped. Like you are their mom and you have to tell them what to do? I really didn't think i was that bad.

All of my friends I've ever had, I lost. I work wayyy to much. WAY WAY WAY to much. I guess i realize that now. Working a 45 hour week and going to school with ( Read more... )