I never write in this anymore. but what's the point? nothing matters anymore.

 so my life has changed so dramatically in the past few months.  i'm just touching back down to the ground.

but i've kinda got this amazing girl that i don't know how i ever lived without.

my life has been really hectic.
and i've done a lot of stupid shit.
i  haven't slept so time isn't moving fast enough. 
i'm always busy but i need to be.
i can't just sit home and think about shit. 
i'll loose my mind.

can someone just tell me what to do?

i can't find the line between fun and desperate.

oops.
heh.

i thought that i was going to have a harder time with this than i thought but everyone has been amazing.
and i've had my mind occupied every second,  no time to think about regrets.

p.s i love red wine

everythings different.
i'm different.

i'm curious as to how my life will change after this.
i don't know where i am anymore.

is this what it's like to be numb?

You would think after all this time
Your taste would have lifted from my lips
And I would forget your eyes were out for gold and all the rest.
And I won't forgive -

because I can't forget the weight I carry in my chest.

I'm far too far from giving up - I swear.
I swear.
My wishes remain the same: for steady hands to be held.
Hands to hold, and to be held.
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so my  life is going to hell slowly in front of my eyes, and there's nothing i can do to stop it anymore.

p.s i'm going to be the creepy cat lady when i grow old.  and i'm totally fine with that.

i have to get rid of my cat.  well,  he's going to be staying with a friend, but if you know me, than you know i'm not okay with my baby boy leaving me.  and he wont be fine either. my cats the only thing i've ever had this long, and i love him more than i should, but that little fuck is my life ( Read more... )

so i moved back to auburn and i am the happiest i could ever be.

things are going to change and i'm not letting this go again.  i can't.  not if i really wanna be happy again.