everything is right-justified here now - kind of annoying.

for all the times i mean to post here, it just doesn't happen. the thing about negative feedback is that it is a lot easier to remember than anything positive due to basic adaptive behavior. even perceived negative response can be a block - this is why i usually yammer about interpersonal balance... in hopes that shit doesn't get to me as quickly ( Read more... )

been super emotive lately - up down etc. i try not to get people sucked in, but that's most of the fun. got some cds that can really get me cranked up or really wallow in the lows. not really sure what i'm trying to accomplish with this besides it being fun. spend a lot of time crazy-singing in the car 8D maybe i'm just working the ( Read more... )

i'm not sure if everyone gets this or not, but i have been feeling like people are taking a lot out of everything i do. i have always been pretty sure of myself and how i relate to others, but this almost palpable observation and expectation people have of me is intimidating. i know that people expect something from me - something big and ( Read more... )

for what it's worth, i made today awesome, even though everyone around me was completely misearable. feeding off stress works out pretty well when you feed off other people's stress instead of your own. i busted it all day and then hit ultra-cruise starting at 4pm. lots of car-dancing-windows-down-hand-signaling-cloud-gazing going on. tried to ( Read more... )

i usually feel imposed on by people, which is why i try to keep my distance. i think i need to try immersing myself in them a bit more, but fighting back with the force of my own personality - push the equilibrium back the other way a bit. this might be something that only applies to certain personalities though - have to watch that ( Read more... )

got together with a bunch of college friends tonight - it was fun, if somewhat superficial (only because of the limited time and biggish crowd). it's frustrating only being in town for a couple of weeks. even though that is ample time to connect with people, it still leaves a lot of questions unanswered. i barely scratch the surface of the ( Read more... )

i joined facebook - it's a lot nicer than myspace, but most of the people from high school remember me as who i was in high school i think, so they assume i am still as spacy and confusing. i'm actually feeling much more grounded lately, like i have some gigantic purpose that i'm finally on the brink of realizing. i can feel it, but i'm not sure ( Read more... )

went to a beer fest tonight - went ok. i was re-exposed to a lot of the college-type issues of the past. touchy-feely drunk chick, shallow marketing chicks, online columnist scenester, trashed white-trash dude, random friendly older guy, hippy-fried world-changer, more shallow bar-star chicks, and accompanying tough-guy guardians. i decided i ( Read more... )

Polling places lack resources, civil rights group says.

States’ Actions to Block Voters Appear Illegal

food for thought that may make you nauseous. hope you got your voter registration all set - it was due the 6th here. good luck voting.