I feel very much energized and recovered. 13 hours of sleep can totally change your outlook on a lot of things. 3 to 4 hours of sleep damn near every night can really make one want to stab themselves in the eyeball with a pair of tweezers. Or maybe thats just me. Anywho, it's rainy and cold outside, which pisses me off. It just puts me in a foul ( Read more... )

"Dimebag" Darryl Abbot, former guitarist of Pantera and current guitarist of Damageplan was shot dead on stage last night in Ohio. He was one of five killed before a police officer gunned down the shooter. Several others were injured. This is a sad day for metal music, and music in general for that matter ( Read more... )

Empty. Everything is empty and pointless.

Nothing has changed.

Please just leave me alone. Leave me in peace.

My dreams...
My reality...

Empty.

Nothing will ever change.

Long night. I remember the important parts though. Pretty sure I got at least a small case of alcohol poisoning, but no biggy. The night was fun. I'm just going to lay off of the booze for a while and give myself a break. Kind of sad that Kevin and I failed so miserably at the goals we had set. At least we kept Summer safe though. That's the most ( Read more... )

Going to Richie's tonight. Going to give me some time to think. And get drunk. Although I'm really not sure how drunk I will be getting. Going to depend on my mood I guess. Also, we have 1 more open spot in Nathan's car if anyone needs/wants a ride. Just let me know.

Ok. I have to get some things out, to help clear stuff up with myself at least. I remember most of what happened at the party. Mitch has told about a couple of small things that I have no recollection of doing, so I can't take for granted that I remembered everything. I got very messed up. I did some things, but I don't regret doing them at all. I ( Read more... )

Mood shift like 180°. We came to an agreement in which I go to class at least 2 days a week, and work my 30-35 hours, and we split the cost of insurance. Mother and George were very pleased with that. Therefore so am I, as I only have to worry about 750 bucks instead of 1500, and I get to stay here free and eat their food and such. Basically the ( Read more... )

Fucking bullshit. Everything is spinning so fast I have no clue which way is up anymore. Apparently mother dearest has been massively blowing my price of rent out of proportion. George sat down and calculated my earnings out, based on a 30 hour week and came up with a number of $57 a week. I said I wasn't sure what I was gonna do, live here or with ( Read more... )

Chaos. That pretty much sums it up. Basically I am now going to be living with Mitch, as my mother and stepdad are planning on charging me at least 350 a month for rent. I refuse to have to pay for the company of my family. If I have to pay for a place to live, I will pay for my own damn place or a place with a friend. I will be living with Mitch ( Read more... )

I really figure it's time for an update. There has been a stupid amount of shit that has happend since last I updated. Some being good, some being bad. However, this is only going to be a half-assed update. Our show on the 2nd kicked ass. My dad can still die for all I care. I don't have any days off anymore. Working 5 days a week and still might ( Read more... )