the mind is always indecisive, but we learn to deal with it, and usually make bad choices. but life isn't always full of bad choices. and how we deal with those bad choices is all up to us. i choose to elevate my mind to a higher level, and i learn to take things in stride. because life is to short to stress about what we can't control. So you ( Read more... )

i don't know what the fuck has happend to me, but i do konw i am the biggest piece of unmotivated worthless piece of shit this world has ever seen.

im pretty certain im losing my mind. last few months i just can't seem to pull myself out of this rut...that i seem to i have put myself in starting many years back. im really trying to dig deep within myself to try and discover why the fuck i am the way i am. why i am a lazy unmotivated asshole and have been the last fucking 21 years of my life ( Read more... )

hello, is anybody out there? can anybody hear me?

i don't really feel like this life is even worth living anymore.

im really reaching my wits end.

idk who the fuck reads this but due to many more of my so common fuck ups, i moved halfway across the country againi and im living in minneapolis.

fuck. fuck. fuck fuck.

i don't even know what im living for anymore, i really don't.

birth.plague.die

blinded by hate i can't see a thing so iv been swinging my fists at everything

i want to fucking break everything.

this anger needs to be resolved before something serious happens to myself or others.

im done and moving on. those who aren't in my life now probably will never be involved in my life again, too sick and tired.

i find it hard to struggle to maintain everyday. i don't know what happened with my life and i probably never will. these last two years have been the most confusing time iv ever had and i think its finally about time for me to sit down and examine my life.

and im afraid of what i may find.

over the past week i have done nothing with my life. staying up till 5am blazed and drunk as hell and not waking up until 4 in the afternoon. this was supposed to be my week vacation from work, but last monday i was fired for some crazy bullshit...very very long story. anyway i needed this week to unwind and get my head straight. iv come to ( Read more... )

i don't think life could be any different now, and i even said that living in nashville. so here is a short recap of my life ( Read more... )