My dad is okay, he got the test results back today. It was so great to hear him say that when he called, I could feel how I was holding my breath and it felt so good to just breath again.

i love my friends so much. but it sucks when you don't feel good and you're trying to convey your sadness and your melancholy and you can just feel how much they don't want to hear it. they ignore it and change the subject. i'm screaming "i need you!" and what i'm getting is a pat on the back and distraction. i truly do love them, they're great ( Read more... )

Don't compromise yourself. You're all you've got.

So what's new in my life ( Read more... )

I miss people all over the world. I wish I could gather them all up in a little box and fish them out whenever I needed them. Selfish, huh? Because the thing is, if they all actually lived here, near me, I wouldn't be able to maintain the friendships. I wouldn't have the time. So I wish i could keep them all in a box and reach in and grab one/a few ( Read more... )

In my head:
If i was beautiful like you
I would never be at fault
I would walk in the rain
between the raindrops
Bringing traffic to a halt

But that can never be
that will never, never be
Coz i'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me

On my mind:Just a little bit sick of myself. Been sitting around with no energy all day, watching movies ( Read more... )

Today: Early morning. Walking. Lots of reading. Laughter and tears at work. Chinese left-overs for lunch. Sharing parts of my past. Driving around on the job, talking about girls and boys and relationships. Driving my dad's car. Buying things for Ani. Walking some more. Eating too much.

And soon: Watching "Desperate Housewives". Sweet, ( Read more... )

... this is the skin it's in
that is according to light and gravity
i'll take off my disguise
the mask you met me in
'cause i've got something fun for you to seeGaybee in a whole new shape. Not so much for novelty as for my old lj being completely fucked up. As good a time as any though to make a resolution to write more and to be truer than ever ( Read more... )