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I GOT IT BACK!!!
A part of me that I feared had gone missing forever, has returned. And the best part was celebrating it's return. I've missed being whole. It's so much harder to get through each day with a chunk of you missing.
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Letter 1
To My Depression;
I love you and hate you all in the same breath. You have tainted my childhood, leaving me with only the happiest memories intact. My daydreams lack colour because of you. I dream of death and destruction, smiling at my twisted thoughts. No part of me or my life can escape you. At the same time I developed better coping ( Read more... ) -
Confessions 1
Im sorry...
im sorry i used you
im sorry i cheated
im sorry i scarred you
im sorry i broke you
im sorry i refused to help you
im sorry i refused to help you heal
im sorry you lost me
im sorry i hate you
im sorry you hate me
im sorry i want to be erased
im sorry i want to be killed
im sorry i want to kill me
im sorry i left you
im sorry i won't take you back
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Alone...
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so I've decided that this journal is outdated and has too depressing a name, so I'm switching over to my lesser account, healing_hope. Add me there, I intend to update more often now. :) hope to hear from you all soon -
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So I've made a decision about Christmas. Family is more important, so I've backed out of Doug's family's thing. I still wish I could have worked both, but I would have been surprised if things had worked so perfectly. As far as school goes, I'm starting to accept that I will be there again next year, but at least I will be closer to graduation, and ( Read more... ) -
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So I have a lot of stress right now. The biggest is Christmas. I want to spend Christmas with Doug's family, and my parents think I am making a mistake. Then the most immediate stree is trying to find someone to switch shifts with at work. Next up is school and my concerns about the number of credits I'll be earning this semester. All in all, I'm a ( Read more... ) -
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So here I am, a couple of minutes to 2am and not all the tired. Figures. Mom is disappointed by my choice to spend Christmas with Doug and his family, but that's the choice I've made. I hope it goes well, I've be feeling quite sorry for Don and Donna over their recent unemployment. I know that it is not a good time to be unemployed, both because it ( Read more... )
