well uhh... todays our first month together. im happy =) this seems so different to me. i cant ask for more i guess. but its cool. hah. too bad im missing _______ hopefully i can go visit on my bday. [wooooot] i guess i can say ive been having fun the past months. hopefully pete feels the same. but uhh.. i just wana give a [rose] hahaha "for you" ( Read more... )

Oh HELLO! lol. wow, its been months with out this thing. well um... i can start off by saying that i like how my life is running right now. its cool. i mean, well there are still things that i do regret doing, i kno everyone would like to turn back time, eh? theres still things that will always remain, & which will be permanantly be in mind. in the ( Read more... )

mmk... um...
im here at home trying to get ahold of this certain person, but they wont answer my fone calls. ugh... idk wuts gona happen...
anywho... i was so mad today cuz my manager called me so that way i can go to work today. i didnt even kno i worked... so i was like an hour late. haha. taco bell is soo gross now, i cant even eat it. im ( Read more... )

well uh.. today is easter. i went easter egg hunting with the lil kids. and i got all the money and left the eggs where i found them haha. i had some fun. rene came, then eddie(the guy that i heart soo much!). it was crazy cuz i actually introduced him to my mom, i didnt want to cuz i was scared. but she ended up likeing him! yes! well im soo ( Read more... )

WoW! what happend to this?! its not soo addictive like my space.  its soo wierd now, since like i havent written in this in so long.  but anywho, i just wanted to write in this thing cuz i was soo bored.  anywho! i finally got to talk to my julian.  im soo glad hes out of jail, plus we're supposed to kick it on friday! hopefully my mom doesnt ( Read more... )

okay... um... well today, i went to jannet's rosary.  oh man, it was soo sad.  i seriously didnt want to see her.  but i went up to see her.  i was shaking the whole time, i.... ugh.. i duno, i just froze in front of her casket.  after i saw her, ann and i walked out, and i saw eddie.  i went up to him and gave him a hug.  i asked him if he was ( Read more... )

all i want to say is R.I.P. Jannet Valencia. 
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im here at home, ugh.. i just ate pizza, im soo full. ah... i talked to ann after skool today. she was on her way to her wrestling match in nevada. everytime i talk to her, im always quiet. i never have anything to say. i sat next to her 6th period cuz stupid heather didnt come to skool. i wore her wrestling sweater today, i never saw myself ( Read more... )

'creep' by radiohead
when you where here before
couldnt look you in the eye
you're just like an angel
your skin makes me cry
you float like a feather
in a beautiful world
i wish i was special
you're so fucking special
but im a creep
im a weirdo
what the hell am i doing here
i dont belong here
i dont care if it hurts
i want a have control
i want a perfect body
i ( Read more... )

this has been kinda wierd/boring/depressing weekend. for some reason, on saturday, i kept crying. i just started crying for no reason, i just wish i can know why or whats happening to me. my older sister came to pick me up, so we just talked for a while. she tried to convince my mom to let me spend the night, but my mom didnt let me. i might ( Read more... )