volcano choir

good grief dear knees, please. i love you. so theres a giant cave outside my door and when i open it up my self is in it. its deep, narrow, and endless. i can walk or crawl to a place in space, wherever. its great for when im lonely cause i get to know my loneliness more, i can expand my self and shrink and be swallowed, tucked away in this. i know ( Read more... )

i went to church today ( Read more... )

i'm performing my solo this weekend at the departmental concert friday and saturday. i have been sick with a stomach virus type thing and today is the first day i am eating something other than toast or rice and i am feeling better. i've barely gone to classes this week and have had it lurking in my mind about my performance. i'm thankful that i am ( Read more... )

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WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATER is great.
im alive and got a heart.

idk shits crazy yeah? like i cannot do it all right or something, but I am grateful still.

just a big inhale to exhale it all out.

and mmm i love the sound of hard rain with heavy winds. 

 it's november already...i don't know what i think about that. i want to be in it all, present for now, but this and that clogs my head. i don't know how fortunate i am and all the while how blinded the fortunate makes me.  right now, i sit, thinking of what to do with time- i want to speak to you. 
i just think your presence is so obviously absent ( Read more... )

listening. 
I am trying to listen, to the sounds... people's words, hear the unspoken and feel it as if some transfer of embodiment occurred. I hear it in the eyes, and can feel...I hope to listen. People's bodies radiate heat, sometimes cold..lukewarm...all moving.  You can really feel someone, to learn to listen.

presence. 
What else could I learn ( Read more... )

I drank one cup of coffee this a.m. and now have waterfalls of sweat in my arm pits....rain drops sliding down my arms and on my dress.

I had no idea who T-Pain was until yesterday, while I was riding in a car. I heard words like auto tune, T-Pain, and some others I forget already. A friend asked if I had ever heard of auto tune- and dammit I said no, thinking it was a band of some sorts. ITS NOT. surprise. I am only 21, and dumber then an unsharpened pencil or a nail without a ( Read more... )