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Bleehehhhhhh. I'm sick. Really sick. Uber sick. Mhm.
Last night I threw up a few times, and I'm doing much better today, but I'm still under the weather.
I'm really hoping I'm better by tomorrow because I have an "audition" for a job that's really important to me.
And if I go sick, yeah...I doubt I'd get it. So pray for me, or cross your fingers, ( Read more... )

I just got off work, and I have a quick blog I have to write before I begin my long list of things to do. 
I was driving past Los Alisos Middle School on my way home the other day, and if you've ever driven past the school you've seen their bulletin board with the cheesy inspiration quotes. The phrases are usually so over the top it's funny, but ( Read more... )

"Look before you end it all, Look before you shut your eyes.
For the last time there's no more room to go back down.
Your picture trends in black and white, I will show you what it's like
She Whispers In His Ear
'Don't Hurt Me, Don't Forget Me, Don't Hurt Me. I'm Still Not Put Back Together' "

So I had a good two paragraph rant where this sentence was ( Read more... )

First post in like....a week or so. 
I usually forget to post when I'm happy <3
Only when I'm frustrated or upset with something does the blogging magic happen. 
I need to post more happy blogs. Blerghhh.

Anywaysss. This girl got a job. Mhm. I get to work at Party City during the Halloween season.
And I'm going to go to the open interview at Farrell' ( Read more... )

Currently battling anxiety.
-battles-
I used to deal with this with a cigarette, a razorblade, or both.
I'm finally learning how hard life can be without an escape.
It's not that bad. -shrug-

Soooo.
I'm scared my friend Nick is dead. Mhm. I know it sounds paranoid. But he used to call me every few nights after he moved from my house to New Mexico. We ( Read more... )

So I've been thinking a lot lately about what it means to be there for someone unconditionally.
And I realize that that's a dead concept.
People think that when someone hurts them for "no reason", they should just drop them completely.
That they deserve better.
They rarely ever stop and contemplate why it is this person is hurting them.

I have ( Read more... )

Back in Orange County.
I forgot how much I loved this place.
There's so much green, everywhere. And so many people...so many interesting places and sights.
Oh and Chronic Tacos. I love me some Chronic Tacos. -drools-
But although this place didn't change, I feel like I'm not the same.
I only left a few months ago, but a lot has happened.
And friends ( Read more... )

I must have woken up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. Maybe it was because the dogs were howling at the gardeners. Maybe it was because I saw your death once more in my dreams. Or maybe God wanted to test my strength. -_-
I haven't wanted to cut myself as bad as I do this morning in a very long time. It's unbearable. I feel like my veins ( Read more... )

So, I've been thinking a lot this past week. About coming home. 
A few months ago I moved out to Bakersfield, CA. I moved in with my aunt and my cousins, to get away from my parents and my siblings. They were suffocating me. They're pretty much all substance abusers, whether it's alcohol or marijuana, or something else. I couldn't stand living in ( Read more... )