climb up stairs find way to roof look down spit on people below world is filth cant make you happy cant make you smile or laugh cant make anything better for those loved cant kill him or beat him bloody again for you (although 1000 times would never be enough)looking past aspect of direction now: no one cares here no one to make feel okay like you ( Read more... )

rocket construction now complete. checking ignition and kissing babies. preparing for departure. to sail into unending blue. all i ever wanted was to sleep, in the stars was to breathe, in their light. fueled by ambition and an escapist mentality. lets go together. we will lose our oxygen quickly, dying as we kiss. and even dead and floating in ( Read more... )

i went to bed last night at 5 am. the a/c wasnt on and it was too warm. i woke up this morning at 7 30 and my shampoo exploded in my stupid plastic shower basket. everything got covered in shampoo. then i started brushing my teeth and it tasted like shampoo. then i started crying hysterically and i had to leave the bathroom and hope alex wasnt in ( Read more... )

How to make a mybloodisfire
Ingredients:

1 part anger

3 parts brilliance

5 parts energy
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
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these pills make me angry. im so fucking mad and i dont know why. i just want to smash things and faces. i dont even know about it anymore. i feel like ive been left in the dark as to how she feels for months. she resents me for having to leave. but thats the thing i HAVE to leave, its not a luxury. its not a vacation. its 17 credits of work per ( Read more... )

pain in my chest. i feel it shattering with each passing hour. hope of reuniting is fading. i said it was a possibility, i had no idea it was such a big one. im turning cold again already. ice fucking cold just like my years past. it hurts now but will lonely security follow? i dont know. my skin is turning to stone and my heart is becoming black ( Read more... )

ive been up since 8 clock yesterday morning. i feel great i went on a walk at like 545. i watched the sun come up and it was poetic and i felt a mix of being a huge sappy emo kid loser and feeling like the king of burtonsville. everything feels alright right now. im not sad and im not really manic, im just happy. im like a 10 out of 10 baby. a ( Read more... )

i feel bad. im so lonely. why didnt you just come over for a minute or two. im so lonely. i feel bad. just for a minute or two. why did everybody fake. do i have to pour my heart out just to have someone come over so i can talk to them. i just want to talk to somebody but nobody is here and no one will come tonight. i'd do anything to have anybody ( Read more... )

this is the last time im ever gonna write in this stupid thing. i think the internet is slowly corroding communication between people and id rather not post how i feel on something so cold and sterile as an internet journal. the written word is possibly the greatest achievement of mankind, along with music and other forms of art. since this is my ( Read more... )

im updating your journal for you joseph. SURPRISE! i love you and i hope you have a good day whenever you read this!