My former roommate used to joke that all I ever did was install the same program in my spare time. It isn't accurate, but, close enough to the truth that I would just laugh. For years I played games in my spare time, but, now that other than treatment, all I have is spare time, my passtimes have become a little more complex. What would you do with ( Read more... )

I may try to post more. I have the time I guess, I just always find something to do I feel is more important than talking about what I am doing. I spent some time researching LJ this morning, and, while I don't condone all their partnerships, they get a pass, so my ethics at least won't be standing in the way. Yah!

Well the day have have been waiting for since I came back to the states is finely here. We don't have the documentation yet, but, we are officially divorced. It only took three years. upset emoticon I'm not really sure how I feel. I am glad that it is finely over. At the same time it has been over for a very long time. I am hoping this can provide ( Read more... )

It is so easy to put people in boxes. I have a dislike of many feminists, but, I realize that not all feminists, male or female are evil emasculating beings. That said neither are all men who ask for equal rights. Specifically father's rights. I have no first hand knowledge of what goes on in this country. My daughter lives in Germany. I have paid ( Read more... )

 I have spent the last twenty-two hours compiling the data and writing it, and, I really don't know what to do with it. I wrote it more or less in a hyper focused state, with out any rhyme nor reason why or what for. For these reasons I submit it for your reading pleasure if you have the desire to see what I have discovered through my own three ( Read more... )

In reply to a friends facebook status.

I'm A-political. I always have been. The reasons I do not participate in the political process are not listed in any of the self righteous posts above. The short of it is, I believe the system is broken and in dire need of an overhaul. The only form of political action I can get behind is a complete ( Read more... )

I have finally closed the Bughouse chat room. The forum I will leave up. At some point I will probably go back to work on it and try to do something with it again. As it stands with the opening of Nuvuvu - a mental health community and the mass migration, it seems rather pointless right now. My main goal was to keep the community together until ( Read more... )

Observations, opinions and a personal message to all.

Oh the tittle would have been too long, but, this article is also meant as feedback and suggestions to the site the creators and admin. You guys rock. I I want to thank both Kieran and Anne for providing a home away from home for us again. I would also like to thank every one of the users that ( Read more... )

I feel like I can't win. I have been consistently fucking up for a while now and I am starting to feel the repercussions. I need to get back in therapy. I can't handle things right now. I'm an emotional mess and I have no where to turn, but, to strangers on the internet. The people that care about me are unable to truly give me the help I need and ( Read more... )

If you have ever wondered what it is like to be a borderline with bipolar this is it. This what I have felt everytime I have ever self harmed or attempted suicide.

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So I have been talking about the doom a lot since I joined the group ( Read more... )