Funny thing mental turmoil. makes the mind hyper sensitive, makes the hearts beat faster and even with all the pain and strangeness the air seems more alive. Gawd I need to write soon. The blood will flow the ink spill on the page and my many lifes shall be written for you the audience.

These vains are dry
the blood is gone,
and yet I still breath
only because you are
breathing in deep for me.

Along the waters edge my limp
hand dips breaking
the surface

the balance between
sanity and my reality
an edge sharp enough
to kill

been doing a lot of writing. Today I came up with two new story ideas. Like I need any more. I wrote them down and put them in the back of the file. Writing just makes me want to write more. crazy as that may seem. as for now, get dressed (yes I'm naked) med the kittens, leave check for dog sitter with treats, pick up laundry room.

I'm gong to be removing a large number of people from this journal. If you want to stay in let me know. if you don't read this journal or skim don't feel bad or ask to stay. I'm going to start posting some very dark thoughts and stories soon.

where in the world will we hide when the next world war presents itself on our doorsteps will we survive, will we stand up and fight for what we believe in? are we already laying down and taking the whip to our backs. Who's fields do I plow, and who mouths does my labors feed ( Read more... )

Do you even wonder why you are wired the way you are? I feel like my brain is miswired all over the place.....

Sometimes the sanity I thought I had will bubble up to the surface and make farting sounds in my head.....

This working third shift really messes with my mind in attempting to figure out what day it is. It also messes with my mind because of sleeping in the day time. I have noticed one good benifit I have been having more and more book ideas and creative energy, but less cleaning energy. Guess what I'm going to work on tonight before leaving for work. ( Read more... )

momentary silence ( Read more... )

I find it odd that every song playing thourgh my head right now is a NIN song. Right now My mental DJ is playing "Down in it" from the pretty hate machine album.

-Jay out