Someone tell me what I need to do. Someone please help me. I can't lose him like this. I don't want to lose him at all. But because of bullshit lies, I think I really am. And I don't want that to happen. Please give me some advice. I didn't cheat on him, but because someone else in his past did, he is believing that I did. And I can't let him sit ( Read more... )

It hurts so bad right now. I don't want to lose him, not like this. He makes me so happy and I just lost him because of fucking lies.

Late last night I found out that we're leaving tomorrow instead of early Sunday morning. And then today I find out that Danny has to work until after midnight, so I don't get to see him. I haven't seen him all week and now I won't see him today, probably not tomorrow morning, then we leave and I don't get back until Friday. Or Saturday, I have no ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to begin. I want to tell you everything that I'm thinking but I'm afraid. So I sit here and tell my journal that you have no idea exists. It hurts that you are too busy to talk to me. It doesn't matter what I'm doing (except for when I'm working) I stop and talk to you. Or I do both. You hurt me when you forgot about me. ( Read more... )

Check out my myspace. There's a new pic up. So everyone can finally see Mocha. Ain't she most adorable? But other than that everything is same ol same ol.

It's funny how everything changes over a year. Like me. I'm a mother, I'm engaged (!!!!), I'm in love...and everything in my life seems to be falling into place. Some things that I want to do with my life right now are ( Read more... )

I swore I wasn't going to rush this. And in all truthfulness, I'm not rushing it. I'm taking my time to say what I feel. Last night when I was getting off the phone with Mitch I told him I love him. He hasn't said it back, but I'm not really worried about that. He'll say it when the time is right for him. And I respect that. Stevie made him promise ( Read more... )

I'm in a good mood. Well, in all actuality I'm in a great mood. I've had a blast these past few days. Well he came back and he came up to KFC to see me. That was Saturday night. After I got off work he drove me and Amanda to my house. We ended up watching movies until like 3 in the morning. I walked him out to his car and we had our first kiss. He ( Read more... )

I'm in a really good mood. I have to be at work by 5 so I have the afternoon to chill out and hang with my girlfriend. lol. Amanda is sitting behind me singing Hilary Duff. I like school...well this school. I like being in a class with girls that are stupid and always look confused, and the really hot Country Boy. His name is David. He's awesome. ( Read more... )

I'm in a good mood. I'm going on a cruise in September. Yay. That's gonna be awesome. It's gonna be my mom, grandma, Aunt Terry, Jad, Matthew, and me... and if Amanda is living with me by then, and her too. That's gonna be freakin sweet.