I've finally figured it out. I'm in love with my best friend. And I want to be with him. But I don't know if he wants to be with me too. And I don't know how to tell him I want to be with him. Ah shit. I want to tell him. And we would both be ridiculed about the age difference. My mom will flip. His friends at work will say I'm too young for him. ( Read more... )

I haven't used this thing in forever. Wow. Last time I used it was in effin' November. Damn it's been forever. I still feel like a little girl sometimes. I hear the bass from a car and think it's Danny coming over to my house, or I'll hear the loud revving sound from a car and think it's him. I still get all giddy when I talk to Austin, but there's ( Read more... )

All the things I'll never have enough guts to say to your face. Last night that hurt. Ouch. I really hoped you were coming back to get me. But you didn't. Yes, I kissed him. I told you that. I kissed him on the cheek. And you know what happened right after I walked away? I threw up. Glad to know that one aren't you? I didn't feel guilty because I ( Read more... )

I wish everything was back to normal. I wish I could still see you everyday. I wish I didn't have to act like everything is fine and that I don't want to cry and just hold you every time I talk to you or see you...or think about you for that matter. I still love you. I still want you. I still want to be with you. You're still my everything. My ( Read more... )

I talked to Danny today. He's supposed to be on his way over here. I'm not sure if he really is coming over, but I hope he does. It's been over a month since I've seen him. Lala. I dunno. I'll talk to you later....Love ya all.
Brit

I feel sick. As in sick to my stomach sick. I dunno why. But I do. And I want this feeling to stop. I have to go to work today, ooo well. I'll make it through. All I want to hear is I'm beautiful. Just that one thing right now. But that ain't happening. Because of the reason that I'm not. Yes I am having a pity party right now, but after what has ( Read more... )

I hate this shit. It always happens to me. I really shouldn't believe that I could do anything right. People just piss me off. Of course somebody else got the guy. Not me. As usual. So Friday night I was hanging out with Dalhia and I met this guy named Brad. Now him and Ashley are going to hook up. Sounds so familiar doesn't it? Amanda and Zac, ( Read more... )

I'm talking to my hat. I love him to death. I miss him so much. I told him about Danny and he was all nice and like, "I"m sorry." But not like pity sorry, like drunk sorry. Because he is drunk. And probably high too. I miss him. I'm going to see him during summer...or spring break. And when I go up there.....that's all I'm going to say. He's ( Read more... )

Wow. This is all turning out kinda strange. I can't believe I've really been hanging out with you and talking to you on the phone. I really do like you and I know you like me, but it probably won't ever go beyond an infatuation. I do like you and you don't pass any judgement on me and make me feel good about myself, but I am really in love with ( Read more... )

I've got a secret. And I can't wait until the shit hits the fan, comes falling all around, and hits the fan again. Believe me, this will be interesting. I better not find out that you and him are the ones who are lying. You should know me better than that. Right now, I can't stop smirking. You have no idea what a mind blower you're in for. I just ( Read more... )