I'm sitting in Suz's room updating my journal. She just kissed me. Wow. Suz has balls now. But yes, the real reason for this entry. Give me a reason to hate you. Just so I don't love you so much. Hurt me, Leave me, just so I don't break down and cry when it's time for you to go. Make me hate you. See if it's possible. Just look hard enough. Hurt me ( Read more... )

TO EVERYBODY WHO READS THIS: If I do not personally invite you into my business then stay out. My business is my own, not yours and sticking your nose into it does not help me, it pisses me off. Stay out.

Yes. It's offical. I'm giving up. On everything. Well. Him. I can't put myself through this anymore. I'm not doing it. I've been hurt way too many times and I don't want to deal with it anymore. Well. Later then.

I'm confused. How did everything turn out like this? It's been the first time in a long time that he hasn't shown up at my house. I pushed him away. After everything that happened...I pushed away. I love him. I don't want it to end like this. But what am I supposed to do? We're not dating so I can't call him up and beg for him to come back. And I'm ( Read more... )

I keep coughing. And I can't stop. I feel like I'm still running on the exermacize machine. 20 minutes. Over 200 calories burned and about 100 grams of fat burned. YES! I like Britney Spears' new song 'Do Something.' It's a pretty good song. Been hanging out with Suz and Demetris today. Last night I fell asleep in his arms...again. My eye is almost ( Read more... )

I need to pee. Jeez. I'm going to church with Stevie and Nathaniel and Suz. I know, me church? Nah...But she asked me and I said yes because I'm such a nice friend. Haha. Stevie and Suz are talking again. And I miss my Demetris. He went to Montgomery, Alabama this morning because he had to go to a funeral. Sniffles. But I'm gonna go annd take a ( Read more... )

I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. Really. Life is good. I love being alive right now. My nails look cool. My index fingers are pink and the rest are black. I'm starting another of my 'trends.' Like freshman year I had my two toned french manicures. Unlike the traditional ones. Mine were like, pink with red tips, or bright blue with dark blue tips. It ( Read more... )

I'm bored. Today was the field trip to FTCC and to the hospital. The babies were soooo small. They were so cute.

Had fun with Demetris last night. Hopefully again tonight...

I'm sleepy. Kinda. Last night was fun. Leave it at that. If I tell you, you're special and if I don't...sucks to be you. Don't ask, don't tell. Today was my last day teaching the kids Spanish at the elementary school. I feel sad. I liked those kids. I gave them my phone number. And told them that they could call me if they had a question about ( Read more... )

He bugs me so much. I hate him with a serious passion. I saw Tim and Tammy for the first time since before I began high school today. And I barely said a word to them. I talked about the fact that I work at a daycare and I teach kids Spanish at the elementary school. Big deal. He said something about a 'small town' that he went and taught at. I ( Read more... )