it blows my mind that people wanna try to get inside my tired head

[vivian]

Ha. Spoke too soon yesterday.

Sometimes I wonder if there's some kind of power or principle or something shoving us around. Yeah, don't ask about loup-garou theology, it'd take me a month and a half to even tell you enough of the stories for us to have a place to start, but, you know? Sometimes things are too much of a coincidence for you to

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[vivian]

It does help, yes. And thank you.

I -- we're taught that pack comes above all else, but I've never felt like these people are my pack. My pack was my family, and they're dead now, so -- I guess they are my people, but it doesn't feel like it. So I guess I'm all confused because of that.

We're not supposed to be selfish. Our society is complicated, and I'm doing a bad job of explaining it, but ... maybe I'll explain it a bit more this weekend, if I have the time. I want you guys to understand.

[digitalmeowmix2]

If he truly loves you, he can accept what you are, it will take time,but he seems like a good man,and you deserve a good man and to be happy. It all depends on wht you feel you need the most, Your family tradtion, or him? This will be a hard choice, but im confident you will make the right one. "Follow your heart" as the old disney cliche goes.If you need help choosing
know that we will always be there to help you.

[vivian]

I don't even know if I'm making a huge deal out of nothing! But we'll see ...

I don't know what I deserve. I think we all deserve to be happy, but how are any of us to know what happy would be?

[soapbox_queen]

I think you are what you want to be. If you want to be a wolf (or at least more wolf than human), you'll be that way. You'll be Gabriel's alpha and such. If you want to be human, you'll take a chance wtih Aidan. It's your life and you have to decide if a risk like Aidan is worth it.

In my opinion, it without a doubt is.

[vivian]

I think you're right, and that's the biggest thing that makes me want to just walk off and find a third way. Why do I have to be defined as one or the other?

[soapbox_queen]

Humanity is obsessed with stereotyping; it's black or it's white. There's no grey. It's a flaw of nature. People generally aren't able to accept that there might be a third, more open, road.

It's no better for those who aren't wolves, if that's any solace.

[anonymous]

Screw everything -including your pack? You're right. You are more human than wolf. And you don't deserve the Goddess, Lady Moon's gift of Change at all. You disgust me. I can't believe you are one of us.

~Princess Wolf

[vivian]

But I don't feel like they're my pack. I didn't grow up with them; I didn't start running with them until I was already partly grown, and my true pack -- my family, my people -- are dead.

Think of me how you will, but I'm not betraying them.

Hmmmm

[candlegoddess]

I have been in similar sitchuations with men. I made a rule never to date humans, because they do not attract me. They have proven they can not handle the truth about my world, my life.
I'd say be careful, you're a woman, and we are Goddess, no matter what we are, we should not let family or men rule us. Do what you want to do, but remember the chase is half the fun.

--Anachrixtra
Deathdealer in the house of night

Re: Hmmmm

[vivian]

Hmm. A lot to think about; I don't think I've ever heard it put like that before. Thank you for giving me something to ponder...