Is this thing on?

[vivian]

I don't know why I'm writing here. Maybe I'm hoping that someone out there will have some advice, some thoughts, some way to step back and look at the whole picture. I can't; I'm too close. I've been living it too long. I don't know what to do, and I don't know who I can turn to. Nobody here, that's for sure. Maybe nobody, period

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[vivian]

Hello.

That depends greatly on what you mean by away from people. We can blend in when we're in a crowd; we can make believe that we're just like them. Certainly you stick out amongst the crowd for being yourself in a small town?

Thank you for talking to me, Jen.

[anonymous]

...First comment? *grins*

the leader of the pack (yes, it's all right if you get that song stuck in your head too, it's all I can think of sometimes) - I have to say, that made me laugh. Your story is kind of... intense, if a little hard to swallow, but it's good to know you can still find some humour in things.

[vivian]

You're not first, but thank you for talking to me.

I suppose I would find it funny if it wasn't on my mind nearly every moment. Looming there, like mother moon in the sky.

[claramata]

You keep saying "mother moon", does the moon hold some significance in your society? I would assume so since you're a... is warewolf an okay term to use, or would you prefer lupe-garou?

-Erin

[rainbow]

hi, i am boo. i am listening. or reading, at least.

it is easy for me to believe things that are different about ppl cause some things are different about me but not the same way as you.

what does it feel like when your body changes? do you still think like a ppl when your body is animal or does how your thoughts work change too?

[vivian]

Boo? Hello, Boo.

It's agony and ecstasy. There's a moment of pain, a slow burn, before the wild rush of bliss. Everything is in focus; sights and smells, and sounds.

I'm still me, I'm just morphed.

[dzurlady]

Hi - you don't know me, but I was surfing friendsfriends and saw your post, and it looked interesting.

I'm one of the loup-garou. Shapeshifters. Werewolves, you call them, I guess.
Werewolves? I don't know if I believe you, but that's pretty cool if it's true. I guess I'll reserve judgement, for now. If it is true, how do you hide? What does it feel like to change? Can you only do it in the moonlight? Do you *have* to do it in the moonlight?

Every seven years, the leader of the pack (yes, it's all right if you get that song stuck in your head too, it's all I can think of sometimes) takes a new mate. [...] And our pack leader, Gabriel, thinks that I've been prophesied to be his next mate. [...] But I don't want to be a prophecy. I don't want to be with Gabriel.
Every seven years? I guess from your post that it's going to happen again soon? Maybe you should leave for awhile. Find somewhere else, somewhere safer. Are you sure the prophesy is true?

[vivian]

Hello.

There isn't much I feel safe telling you right now, I'm sorry. Some secrets can't get out, some things I have to keep to myself.

Soon, much too soon. Ha, I would run, I should run. If only I could..

[claire]

Ugh. An arranged marriage? Sounds pretty awful to me - although some cultures seem to do OK with them.

I can't understand what you're going through - nothing like that has ever happened to me or anyone I know (well that I know of), but I hope you find the strength to do whatever it is that makes you happy.

[vivian]

It's the way of the pack, the way things have gone for longer than I care to remember.

Thank you.