My mind keeps picking a different mental illness about every two years. Really fantasitc...no....really....no. I remember the time it was honesty.

I'm an anxious ball of foolishness with just enough selfish hope to kill any good intention that might exist ( Read more... )

it was 6:44 in the morning one minute ago. it was 6:44 and it was the third time i'd been up for over an hour since i laid my head down. the clock is still ticking on this Saturday of rest so you tell me, what is it mind?! speak up. it's just stuttering insignificant thing after insignificant thing, careful to never finish a full idea, never make ( Read more... )

I get the day off. and ( Read more... )

i went to church ( Read more... )

i use to have a band with a name. i use to update people on shows. i use to put off my future. people use to respond to these entries. life use to be what is was always meant to be... living. now it's just surviving. and i'm sure i've wrote entries along the same lines. begging for a response. begging for my past back. my youth, my hope. but it's ( Read more... )

stop growing up

everytime i go on here...

no one has posted anything

because everyone feels it's ok to grow up and get over things

fuck that

fuck that

and fuck that.

a couple things.

i started a business. it's sucking the life out of me.

i miss music.

i miss drums.

i miss guitar.

i miss self-confidence.

i miss art.

i started a business. it's sucking the life out of me.

you don't know your falling until you open your eyes. it's a rush. but i'm waiting to hit the ground. i'll be ready this time. really ( Read more... )

anxiety is going to be the death of me. i can't sit still when my head is spinning in circles. i've got to stop following it. i kept touching his shoes when we were standing there. he kept rubbing my back. i said i was fine and told him to go to bed to the woman waiting for him in his bed room. logic vs. feelings. today vs. tomorrow. what should we ( Read more... )