i can feel your breath on the back of my neck
and your finger tips movin down the small of my back
your lips are screaming every little thing you want
they're saying... ah ah ah. ah ah ah ah ah. something like that.

the weight of waiting seems to be too heavy for this poorly constructed, underdeveloped, foundationless frame of a body, which was created using faulty blue prints based on miscalculated angles, backwards mathematical equations, and inaccurate dimensions. this is no pantheon, this is no parthenon, this is no colluseum, and this is no hagia sophia. ( Read more... )

i lost my fuckin mind. that is not questionable.

i guess he's right. i should go to meetings.

can't wait for tomorrow.

you know those long nights that are only going to get longer? i've had far too many. praying things stay somewhat in control but they never do. praying for some kind of comfort but it never comes. not in the form you want. maybe you just aren't looking in the right places. but i've lifted almost every stone in this city. been in very building. ( Read more... )

a man afraid of rape charges (diamond in the rough)

don't worry about it darling (you'll be dead soon)

just sayin.

a pessimist is pessimistic because he believes his pessimism is realism. if a pessimist believes his pessimism is pessimistic he is an optimist.

just sayin.

he asked me to dance. wait no, no... he asked me to polka, he said he would teach me, and he wouldn't let me say no. all i could think was "i haven't drank enough for this". turns out i'm terrible at polka-ing so we moved on to the jitterbug. he told me i was good at it even though i wasn't. we twirled around to bad country songs in the back of a ( Read more... )

we walked around the reservoir last night and i wondered how i went through my whole life without this feeling. the wind brought our still bodies to life and we floated off to a new reality. the road beneath our feet wasn't leading anywhere but to where we already were, and the ever present sense of urgency disappeared. i was exactly where i was ( Read more... )

i sat at a table in a town i barely visit and caught up on a life i miss ( Read more... )

it is nice to know that people still feel. i love reading your entries. you talk about struggles. everyday struggles. how life seems unbearable, how your past never stops haunting you, how you are only giving up now so you dont have to later. you never stop trying to figure things out. and you almost always bring tears to my eyes and a lump to my ( Read more... )

i'm not sure what it is, but it's constantly eating away ( Read more... )