Counting stars is like counting the butterflies that lingering and dance. We want them to last forever but you know they don't. So we jump forward with chaos and unwilling safety. We laugh as the stars burn all around us. Yet we are the chaos that makes us all insane, and the fun is in the love we share. Only that we don't have it till it's ( Read more... )

A broken note, and I am diving into all the emotions that seem to break the waves. I hug the glass as the white grapes dance on my lips. I remember the youth long gone, and the caffeinated hopes we had as we spoke about songs and lyrics. And how we swayed to them all. I miss the moments when I the fool who drank to much proclaimed us champions ( Read more... )

I think to much for my own good. The songs blares into my ear as I struggle to find a meaning to the liquor as I gulp down another toxic revenue. I figure that their is some sense to the action of my purpose in this deed. Only to find that I am confused and dumb struck as my the world passes me by. So I drink another and remember the past is ( Read more... )

Well two weeks I was in Australia and realized how I hate the fact that I left. I loved the people when they dropped their guard. When they became people and not interested in what you want in this world. I danced without a care in the world and drank the world dry as my head spin afterward. I woke up next morning wondering where it went, and ( Read more... )

A decade has past and maybe it is to early since my 30th isn't even hit. To sum it all can make you think a while. I have loved and desired everything, and I have lost a friend a long a way. I have loved and lost. I have seen a good fall away because I let it, and I have done it again and let a friend pass away. I said my good bye but never ( Read more... )

So i finished the tattoo last week, and I this Friday I will finish the other arm. I believe slowly at first that the end is some where close. I a promising art looks ever so close to being complete. All I need is to be proud of the work that has consumed such fortunes and time. We'll see what the crowd thinks. *smirks*

A couple I know tried to save me from the dark thoughts I have had for a long time. It's hard to explain the side of me that is so familiar. I can push away people if they get to close and I guess that is in my nature. Nobody wants the weakness so obvious, and sometimes I have a great skill of isolating myself. It's a skill I know so well, but ( Read more... )

Got back from Texas and trust me, I feel way better back in California. Dealing with idiots and morons made me realize that some people should never breed. I never knew how violent I could be, and how close to the border of murder. So I finally found my scarf in my car, which makes me think that I really need to clean out my trunk. Lets see ( Read more... )

This weekend felt some what productive. I had lunch and dinner with a couple I know. While waiting for them at a British pub I tend to avoid cause there is a lot of happy young people about the industry. I felt the first time some sort of connection with the hostess. I haven't felt for a long time. It was interesting. To drink cider and wait ( Read more... )

Night is day and the stars ( Read more... )