the past few days have blinded me of anything bad in my life, or in anyone elses. nothing but great times, aside from the few (and expected) extremely minor downfalls. the slice of the clock was cut and has me at ease. i guess you can say i no longer am needing that vacation, considering my life is vacation these days. well, these past days anyhow ( Read more... )

i guess this was my last push to reality, to realize i wasn't apart of that life anymore. i can't believe she's really gone. no more late nights downtown, in her car and the anger management spot. no more true meaning of muse, the faint. i let the awkwardness of lies and betrayal slice into our relationship, and i was too afraid to fix it wholly, ( Read more... )

my wings are stretching out from such vast underusage. sore and weary, each feather flexes and shakes into its rightful position. my span is beyond long. first flap, then another, feet dangling in the air. rising, testing. over the ocean, aweing its beauty, hopeful of my newfound strength. across the orange-lit sea, towards the falling sun. gaining ( Read more... )

the more i contemplate, the more inquality i see. i partially don't even care, which scares me because maybe that means this is my revelation of the end. on the other hand, i hate the distance. i wrote so long ago about the heart tied to a rope, and the further i flew the harder it pulled, the more the pain. that applies today. i want to stand ( Read more... )

chrome and gloss try to cross my motives, but i'm standing firm. since my backbone is typically in the front seat anyways. early-night quiet drive-bys don't really even tempt me. although i'd die to see the awkward fit, i have to put myself first. this won't be remedial. either you'll forget me and move on (better sooner than later) or you'll ( Read more... )

somehow the sweat out my eyes hasn't caught up to me yet. what a wonder that is ( Read more... )

get off the internet! i'll meet you in the street.

i guess its time to move on from old times and ways. life can be good again, i just need to learn how to let it. i guess. the past was so much fun but it's left me behind so i must do the same. 11:00 nights? i knew this summer wouldn't be worth living. well, with him anyways.

in between the ups and the downs, the shine and the shadows, i'm in my own mind. i'm disregarding responsibilities to review what's been reviewed a thousand times. this equation doesn't seem to have any solution. my mind drifts way beyond the clouds, beyond the sun, to some other galaxy in which time can be frozen, feelings can be made and life isn ( Read more... )

i hate feeling betrayed. sarah calls from her new apartment (..hoorah) that she and caity just moved into together and expects me to be happy for her. she was my ticket out of here, the here being the home i've been recently threatened of getting kicked out of anyways. i didn't want to move in with a boyfriend this early, i wanted to move in with a ( Read more... )

meh i started a superlong entry but it ended up lame so i'll go over highlights ( Read more... )