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higher or lower
Being a brainstem dater means that right now I'm rather hypervigilant. This hypervigilance can manifest itself in an overabundance of mistrust of guys, convincing oneself that hurt is waiting around the corner and you're about to be played again, or thinking that each guy you see is a potential suitor until, "Oh wait, no, he's gay....hmm...maybe ( Read more... ) -
neuroscience of dating
Sitting in orientation as I start my life as a music therapist gave me perspective on my reemergence into the dating world. Go figure. Having your heart completely pummeled by a boy who manages to stick himself in a delusion to escape, for the upteenth time, the act of feeling leave you in a very fearful and vulnerable state. It's a primitive ( Read more... ) -
Two old entries not posted on here...
inspired by a phone call with my friend Carter
Building strong, socially intimate relationships with others is one way to love (and in my opinion, the best way...). However, acceptance is another way of loving others and sometimes that's all one can do.
inspired by Angry Nell
I think sometimes we meet people as a lesson in what NOT to do.
I have ( Read more... ) -
karma exists
I just met a new resident this morning towards the end of my 3rd shift. Imagine an angry Nell. I let her put me in a bad mood, but at the same time, I feel bad for her because she's only in her 50's and had a bad stroke and can barely communicate (Holy run-on ( Read more... ) -
from notes to others
Today I was asked how my summer was going, and I answered, "Unpredictable." That is the truth. The Lexington job fell through, and this CNA stuff popped up. I had a breakdown about not understanding where God was directing me since I felt like He was saying, "Teaching." and I didn't think I wanted that for at least this year. Today I got an e- ( Read more... ) -
where do you live?
Memphis = place to visit ( Read more... ) -
cer-azy
i've decided one of my students is nuts. probably more than one is nuts, but this one is crazy. he's undercover crazy, though, because i just discovered it today. if he shouts something out and i tell him, "raise your hand." he will just be quiet instead of taking the opportunity to ask his question. then today i told him to go sit down before ( Read more... ) -
one for the record
yeah...i'm dark. i should be finishing up my prep for tomorrow so i can get some sleep tonight, but instead i decided to take time to record the fact that my dog, pattee, my first and only dog, is going to be put to sleep tomorrow. apparantly she had a stroke a few hours ago. it's really sad ( Read more... ) -
i want to get used to this
my reading class is completely silent as they read silently. i wanted to see if they had some aptitude for such a thing because i know i did not at their age.
i hope this lasts. we'll see how next period goes along with my religion classes. *barf* -
they were happy to see me!
Yay! My last two papers for the summer are done ( Read more... )