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i swear to fuckin god, every time i wanna hang out with my friends, it NEVER fuckin works. EVERY time i make a plan, it ALWAYS fails. im sick of it. im always fuckin home. doing NOTHING! while everyone else is out having the time of their fuckin life. i hope they are having fun, cuz i sure as hell aint. and now i heard my dad bitchen something ( Read more... )

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omg im goin crazy! i want more xanax's!!!!! so insanely bad! i took one when i got to ryans house today. i feel quite good riht now. its kinda of hard to walk striaht, but its kool. i thought this weekend would work out great, but now katie is gone, to a weeding so i prolly wont get to go see ryan like i wanna. sux! maybe ill taink of somethindg ( Read more... )

today was like the best fuckin day for me. i had so much fuckin fun, i got to hang out with ryan and jamie. me and jamie made out. fun fun. and i always love being with ryan! im feeling quite fucked up right now. i took some pills when i got home, plus the xanie i took at ryans. i was haveing the bestest time over there. but now that im home, all ( Read more... )

...wow, my dad was home all day today! and he was over at the property. nice, i could have got caught SO EFFING easy today. i didnt see him at all, he must have went over to the property while i was with ryan, cuz when i got to work mom was all like, i have to to go the property cuz dad is over there, i was like what?! i thought he had to work, and ( Read more... )

♥I FUCKED RYAN....TWICE!!!...in one day!!♥

RYAN IS A BAD INFLUENCE!!!!

well im at work, and sober. it sux. but atleast im making money ( Read more... )