A spinning bullet waits in the middle
Theres no way to stop it
It will surely hit the mark
You can try to understand but im gving up
The synapes fires, its the right time.....

there will never be happiness when im here and your away

...so cutting my wrists is all i have?

im so bored sitting. i acually did some homework. im proud of myself. this is gay, this class thin lasts till 4 30 and it starts at 2 30...omg thats 2 whole hours! wow im tired. i feel weird, but i always feel like this so i its normal o me now, so i feel normal. im fine. im stupid! haha. im just excited i got a effing pill to take! Yesssss! i ( Read more... )

So im in the most trouble ive ever been in EVER! my parents found out about me smokin, my mom knows about me and ryan, and knows that i had smoked weed. i feel like my life is over. i never get to see ryan...i cant talk to him hardly ever, only when i work. i cant talk to no one on the phone, and i cant go no where, i cant do nothing. im grounded ( Read more... )

omg i had the BEST friday ever! i figured that i wouldnt be aloud to do nothing but i guess i am. it was so fun. i went to katies, Ryan COULD have hung out with me, but instead he spent his weekend with Autum and Amber. but anyways i got so fucked up! me and katie and ricky took pills and then me breana and ricki drang SO MUCH! i got pretty drunk. ( Read more... )

OMG!! im in a shitload of trouble! ryans mom called my mom, acually she called my aunt, and my aunt called my mom, so my mom called his mom, but she wasnt there, so ryans sister gave my mom, his moms cell number, and my mom left a message on his moms phone. (wow, i used the word "mom" a lot, haha) anyways, im grounded for like EVER! and i have to ( Read more... )

I just don't understand how something so pathetic can hurt me so much ( Read more... )

if only you would take back all those things you said

if only you could look me in the eyes

if only i could be there knowing what to do

and if only you would understand

I only said it if i meant it ( Read more... )

You remind me of all the times I lied to myself pretending im ok ( Read more... )