interesting how my mood can change once i look at you, i must be bipolar or something... *sigh, oh well. last night, alot happened, too much chaos, too much lying, ah, so much hate in my heart for you, it angers me at the sight of you, or the thought of you even popping up in my mind. if you would of respected me, none of this would of happened. ( Read more... )

yuck, i am so groooossssss ( Read more... )

you know how i feel, i feel as though God has closed all doors except for you.. he closed the doors on people i shouldnt be friends with, closed the doors on things i was doing instead of focusing on him.. but why hasnt he closed the door on you.. why hasnt he taken away these feelings of love that i have for you?? why am i going through this ( Read more... )

im rededicated, and definately happier than ever ( Read more... )

after tonight, i found out who my real friends were.
you just dont have people come to your doorstep at 10:30 at night for nothing.
they really do care..
they know what ive been going through, they know the heart ache.
and i act as though, they arent there for me..
when really they were there the whole time...

-to you-im sorry for talking so much ( Read more... )

i did you a favor and made all of my entries private so no one could see how big of a freaking jerk you are. i never want you in my life again after tonight, im sick of going through this pain you put me through. you make me feel like im scum of the earth, that i shouldnt even be alive. you hear me crying, yet you hang up and ignore my phonecalls. ( Read more... )

you were my everything, but after tonight.. i had a good cry, and just realized, if this is what you want, if this is what God has your heart set on doing, then so be it... i shouldn't try to get my way.. i know im selfish like that, but i should just let things go. It wont be easy, but i'll get through it. HAWAII, this summer. heck yes ( Read more... )

daddys back from surgery, seeing him tonight gave me a good feeling. as i left to go hang out with a friend, he said "i love you" out of no where.. i was a bit shocked, because my father has never told me that he loves me without me saying it first. maybe because he was away for surgery, a really serious surgery that could of cost him his life, ( Read more... )

Yeah well, today my dad left for a week... Hes going to Shands hospital in Gainsville, FL for his heart surgery.. He has heart disease, and hes known about it since 1994, usually people with the same heart problem live about 10 yrs, this yr being his 11th year.. i thank God for this miracle.. Its like another chance at life.. i pray it all goes ( Read more... )

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