hello, so today was definately in interesting one. i woke up at like 4:30 pucking my guts out. i'm truly hoping that it's just the side effects from the morning after pills, but when my mom wound me on the floor in the bathroom (yes, when i'm sick that's where i like to lay) she asked if i was pregnant. I told her it was a possibility, but a very ( Read more... )

so tongiht ive realized why im so quiet. i fugured it out during a conversation with marc, and felt it needed to be shared. i have this serious hatred for showing any sign of weakness for the most part, to anyone. my theory is that when i show my weakness, someone can and will use it against me, and i wont be able to fight it off. so the more ( Read more... )

where to begin ( Read more... )

FINNISH ME!!!! (please?)

ugh i hate this computer. its so gay. it froze on me, so now that i've had to wait through it shutting down then starting up, its being freakishly slow. and im not talking about turtle slow, its like friggen human evolution slow. *sighs* ok im better ( Read more... )

ok well i did have a rather long rant about certain things, but thanks to recent events, i have a sudden lost of want of ever writing in this again. thanks.

wow. i read my last entry again, and that was the closest to emo i have ever been. and thanks for the replies, their always helpfull ( Read more... )

so today has been really weird. it was one of those days where everything was sort of a blurr. not a drunken or high blurr, just... i cant really explain it. it felt like i was missing something the entire time. yet at the same time i have constantly been aware of the things surrounding me. perhaps its my subconious trying to tell me something ( Read more... )

so ive realized that i havent updated this in a while so i figured i might as well do it now seeing how theres nothing better for me to do. today was basically a day from hell. it didnt start off to bad, despite the lack of electricity, but around noon all hell broke loose and i could barely walk in a straight line. i dont know if ive mentioned ( Read more... )

o and hey brit, i was wondering if i could bribe you into redoing my LJ.... i have a background i really love, ok thank yas. bye