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so my total evaluation of this weekend? it sucked. i dont even know where to begin with all this bullshit, and theres no one to complain to becuase everyone has lives of their own and apparently mines in chicago. besides, i hate being those self absorbed type people, who just complain about how crappy their life is, totally disregarding everyone ( Read more... )

...haven't been burnt lately...

i hate closing! its scary as hell! you might laugh because it suonds so pathetic, i know i would if i were hearing this, but it really is. being alone for however many hours doesnt bother me too much, but i do worry about having the place too messy, but when i turn off the lights and start to put things away is when it is worst for me. no, i lied. ( Read more... )

lol, ok well im back, but i'm not the same, i'll be writing here, but you won't be able to see any of my dark thoughts. those are for me, and me alone. and those who aren't listed as a freind aka matt and brit will see even less from now on. sorry. but i think this way will make everything better

so, hi. this is going to be my last entry to be seen to the masses. i don't really care for having to withhold myself for fear of offending someone, or unintentionally hurting someone. if y ou haven't realized by now i loathe anything that censors me. or maybe i'll just start up with the classic pen and paper method again. o well. i'll fugure ( Read more... )

japan. it all of a sudden feels so real. i'd be letting go of everything i have and what i've been working so hard to get. putting everything on hold, for god knows how long. i wont even have time to finnish anything past high school. maybe. that depends on if he's leaving early. i cant believe myself. im already willing to give up my life to be ( Read more... )

im scared. ive never been late before. its been eating away at me for two days now. everything is a reminder. marc thinks about it too. he hasnt gone right out and said it, but i know he does. he'll bring it up at random times. i think thats one of the hardest parts about this whole ordeal, knowing that hes worrying about it. a part of me still ( Read more... )

omfg! that stupid bitch! how dare she. she has the fucking audacity to threaten to lock me out of the house because i forgot to bring the dog in this morning. like over react much? she honestly called me just now and told me if i did it again she would kcik me out of the house to see how i would like being outside all day. does she not realize i ( Read more... )

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