Until the 2008 election came along, I never cared much about politics. I think the whole system is crap and not a single person holding a political office anywhere can live up to his or her promises. There is always the element of money because somebody has to fund these people. This leads to a popularity contest, which never leads to good things. ( Read more... )

I have a secret. I thought about it today while walking across a street on campus. And songs....they make me think about it too. Most of the time I forget, because I tend to put the biggest things from my mind. It's a talent. But I'm crying right now, just as I cried when I thought of it earlier today. It hurts. I talked to Katie about it ( Read more... )

It has been over a year, which means it has been about a year since I had sex. Funny time to stop using my favorite and most private blog lol. I have not had a relationship in all this time, so I guess LJ hasn't missed much other than my growing as a person. I am so different...I feel it all the time. Last year my resolution was to do things ( Read more... )

I am back home now....and I just arrived. It's Monday. Shortly after posting the last blog, David texted me and said Danielle wasn't coming after all. So I put a condition on whether or not to have sex with him based on whether it was her decision or his that she wasn't coming anymore. When he got home he was very talkative and cuddley. I ( Read more... )

So, on January 8th of 2009, after dating for about 14 months, I broke up with Ryan. My reasons for this are so numerous...I hardly know where to begin or even if I should. I shall though, because maybe one day I will forget and on that day I need to be able to remember so that I do not fall into the same trap. He played games so much that I was ( Read more... )

After being told so many times that I'm not good enough...or just plain enough, I have quit. He wants to date other people so he can just do that. I am not wasting money on gas to go see him anymore unless we have good plans that don't end up with him playing that stupid game until 6 in the morning. This is made easier by the fact that our ( Read more... )

Well I know things are going badly when I come to LJ. I have no relationship and it sucks to feel like I do but to know that he doesn't want me in any offical capacity even though he 'loves' me. I'm mad right now because I finally got him to get off of his stupid computer game just for a little while...so that we could have some good fun...you ( Read more... )

"It is not in regard to a first love that we must look for discretion. The joy with which such a love is attended is so exuberant that it must overflow or it would suffocate us ( Read more... )

I haven't updated this in a while (2 weeks, but that was a private entry and will remain such) and I might as well now....at 5:20 a.m. on Friday, Febuary 1st, 2008. I have Philosophy at 11 and then I'm hitting the road for Dallas...yet again. I can't put into words how I feel about Ryan to be perfectly honest. I know I have had my issues with ( Read more... )

To my boyfriend and third love, Ryan, I leave comfort ( Read more... )