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I feel emotionless. I don't feel like myself. It's my body, but someone else is inside. I feel like I wrote that before. Years ago. Why am I doing this to myself. "I just wish" is how every sentence starts. Well I need to stop wish and start doing to make those wishes happen ( Read more... )

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Well now that Christmas and Hannukah and all those holidays are over, we only have the New Year to celebrate. This just might be my final entry on here. I have create a blog on blogspot for me and my boy. I just thought it would be easier than making this journal public and unlocking all my entries, plus I don't think these entries are family ( Read more... )

UGH I know I said I would write after the holidays, but I have some stuff I need to vent about ( Read more... )

Christmas is offically ONE week away now. Tony just added some presents under the tree for me. I am getting super excited cuz I don't have any idea what they could be. I gave him a list of stuff I wanted but I crossed out some thing cuz I bought them myself. haha Weird I know. So I really can't wait ( Read more... )

So last entry was about my birthday. It went alright. Tony got me a new camera bag and a 8gb memory card. :D So thoughtful and much needed! Oh and for my birthday 'party', I told everyone to head out to Toby Keith's Bar and Grill. I invited about 160 people on Facebook. All of them I knew btw. I understand that people work and stuff, whatever. But ( Read more... )

I should be estatic, right? Well i'm not so much about some things ( Read more... )

Its not about The Office, its not about partying, its not about my boyfriend, its not about anything. Only about the one thing you can't expect ( Read more... )

I'm feeling super lethargic, my throat is kinda sore, hot and cold, mucus, sneezing, blowing my nose non stop. Ugh, but its still not enough to like get out of work. I only have like 3 days left of PTO and 2 of those days are already in the cards for my birthday! So I can't really afford to take anymore days off. Its so frustrating ( Read more... )