One component that I hold extremely valuable in my life, is my son. His name is Anthony, I am so proud of him. I just love being his mom. Its so hard sometimes I had to grow up sooo fast. Never being able to finish school the conventional way, while other teenagers were worried about what they were going to wear to school, or where they were going ( Read more... )

Ugh, I feel so sad and lonley lately, I dont know maybe its just the holidays, or maybe it is something more. I have been so proud of my self for the way I have been handling things about Seymon; but lately there is this naughing feeling at my heart :( I miss having someone there so much, I had my office christmas party last night, and I had a ton ( Read more... )

HA HA! The last time I wrote I was dishing out my frustrations about Nick, well would you know that night I go home to find a letter from him. Oh life is so crazy ( Read more... )

*sigh* I went to pick Anthony up from my sisters house yesterday, to bring him to his weekly doctors appointment. To my surprise he was really anxious, and upset. he then asked my a question, I dont think I am ever ready to answer. He wanted to know where his daddy was, and why he can not go and see him. Its just not fair! I wanted to go to Nicks ( Read more... )

Every once in a while something or someone comes into your life that really changes everything. Anthony was that something for me. I had my first and only child on November 24 1998 just 2 days before Thanksgiving. I was 17 years old ( Read more... )

WEll Last night it was another bad night. I realize and have come to terms with the fact that Seymon is leaving after 5 years. Its bitter sweet. Everyday the pain goes away and is replaced with a type of anger that I am not used to. I guess I am mad because I have given so much more, all I am asking him for is two months, to give me two months. ( Read more... )