this sucks

p.s.

Just got the word...

AC360 misses me ><

KNEW buying the 360 key chain wouldn't be in vain!

scoobyd: get a cake?
X: sure did. amaretto.
scoobyd: mmm i miss cake
scoobyd: (always)
X: I miss you!
scoobyd: :)
X: I'm kind of like cake...
X: ..
X: how are you?

...To remind me later on, in case I keep that uneasy feeling but don't remember why I have it because, perhaps, it's been so long since we've spoken.

build up of inappropriate

Took action. Am OK now. He wrote me back. My female over-analysis says he's not interested.
I think he's gay. If BD can be gay and a heart throb, this guy can be too. It's just a world wonder on how this one can be. Mon dieu.

In other news, I have to find someone who has ADD. My senioritis is cured and I am a walking miracle.

I climb walls for him when I see him. I don't understand it. And then I f*ck things up by being too cautious. Me not wanting to mess up. So I come off conceited or as popular or scary ambitious... I say things you should NEVER say to a guy to get him to like you. Things I'd swear to never consider doing... and then I do it! and I'm a wreck. Maybe ( Read more... )

can't wait to get to the summer. starting new is what i'm best at doing when things get rough (not that it's always the best choice emotionally but it is progressive). if i'm at home for the summer, well, who knows what will happen. if i'm in NYC, i'm scared out of my mind and probably really lonely ( Read more... )

it's like meeting the man of your dreams and then meeting his beautiful wife.

sooo, last night I watched a bit of television, flipping back and forth between Hilary Duff's Cinderella Story (is that it's actual name?) and Me, Myself and Irene. (This is probably such a poor realization so I will start it with....) embarrassingly enough I saw a correlation between it and a small event that has been happening with me (very small ( Read more... )

How can you get rid of what is it, regret? I'm not sure that's exactly it but, something of its nature I'm sure. Hate dwelling on the past. It eats my stomach (terrible weak feeling there). Again, it's nearly 2am and I still have two articles to write before I can feel okay and sleep. And then stupid thoughts come into my head and I'm here ( Read more... )

Trying to complete a pile of homework on my desk but a sick feeling won't go away. Decided maybe this would help it LEAVE ME ALONE (at least for now ( Read more... )