I suppose it's time for me to update this thing. I've been so busy with the end of the year and stuff that I don't really have time for anything else. This is probably my hardest year for me in high school since I'm in all advanced courses, and I'm putting a lot of time and effort into getting ready for the final exams. This is probably the busiest ( Read more... )

So, I'd like to say before I say anything else, R.I.P. those who got killed in the VT massacre...And my thoughts are with the family and friends of those who got killed or injured. For some reason, ever since that entire thing happened, I've found myself thinking about it a lot. It had a big effect on me, and I'm all the way in NY and I don't know ( Read more... )

Life is at a pretty much low for me. I love how everyone told me things would get better over time, when in reality they only keep getting worse. So pretty much, I'm stuck. I'm not happy anymore. I'm always tired, I never wanna do anything, and the only thing that I wanna do is sit here and wallow in my misery. You know what that is? That's ( Read more... )

So I know that you can feel bad about how feelings may change, but are you really supposed to feel bad?
I can't really shake anything off right now. I want to, but I can't.

I feel really bad about how Chris needs me more than I need him. I feel like it's unfair to him to be in a relationship where things like that aren't equal. It used to be equal, ( Read more... )

Honestly, what is the matter with me?
I'm sitting right here...Nothing to do. And who I do I want?
I don't want Chris, I don't want Clay.
I want Brandon. Brandon.

I must be losing it.

I was talking to my mom about everything that happened last night with me deciding I didn't want a boyfriend because I need more time to myself and I think I'm better off ( Read more... )

Yeah...This day sucks already. And it's only....5 after one.
Last night sucked...Dad brought up the whole Kentucky thing. Said I ruined it for him. Wonderful I feel great. He apologized, but I think he only did because my mom made him...So it doesn't really make me feel much better anyway.

So today. It's just going along really boring. I suggested ( Read more... )

Omg. Everyone is in such a bad mood today! Like, this morning I called Chris because I woke up sicker than last night...And he didn't really do anything...I mean he usually does. Which is weird. So. I left him. And I haven't talked to him since, and really dont plan on it til later, too. Or, until he apologizes or something...Because I really don't ( Read more... )

Egh, today was really super crappy. I hate going to the doctor's even if it is just for a flu shot.

But on the plus side, I realized today that I like it when people underestimate me, because that only gives me a reason to try and prove them wrong =) And I'm pretty good at doing that ;-)

After the doctors we all came back home and then we decided ( Read more... )

Argh I'm like depressed.

If you're one of those people that keep telling me to stop complaining, dont read anymore.

My mom announced to me over the weekend that her and my father were might be getting a divorce. That was the last thing I expected. I thought everything was going so well with them, and that she'd never do anything like that again after ( Read more... )

Friday, October 13th.
Friday the 13th.

And.
We didn't have school.
We had a freak snowstorm overnight.

Weird huh?
Yeah, I thought so.
Sooo.
3 day weekend.

I miss Chris :-(