and i scream out MY PROBLEMS ARE BEHIND ME
and i just can't find the words to say that i'm leaving

there is so much i want and need to say
words are completely escaping me
and they have been for months.
this is not how things were supposed to be.
not at all not at all not at all not at all not at all

i'm leaving now for my new job.

yes, i am a faggot.
i feel like i am doing something horribly wrong
but i was the only place that would hire me ahahahhaahhaaaaaaaa

i love seeing my breath in the air.

i will see you in the next life..

if you buy a piece of pie from the cafe downstairs
they let you keep the cheap little plastic dish it comes on

that amused me for some reason.

the weather outside is crazy right now.
it's comforting.

nervous fucking breakdowns
are becoming too routine

i fucking hate this

Mr Metal 0: ever think that some day your gonna miss out on being joey cogs' favortie person

and yeah, call me a faggot.

i STILL love blink182. i fucking think they are classic i don't care how many assholes are running around being lame in their new video which im watching for the first time. i didn't know they were coming back. hoottt.

most RANDOM phone call ever.

but it was so nice to hear your voice.
i worry.

and i feel like shit.new roommate thing is going smooth.
smoked entirely too much pot in the first day of being able to in my room. we had more people in the suite tonight than we have since school started.

i am going to umass amherst tonight with kristina and matt to visit adam and some friends.. hopefully it will be a good time. i don't think i will have fun because i'm not too big into the big party scene.. and i've seen my fair share of college sluts up here i don't need to see them down there as well ( Read more... )