It took me 3 hours to fall aslseep last night. Sometimes when I lay in bed I imagine what it feels like for someone to cradle me while I drift off. I've forgotten.

Brunch on Saturday. Until then, nothing further. Oh yeah, the most beautiful girl in the world is gonna be here in 4 hours. And I still hate Andrea Dworkin. I'm gonna go watch some porn now.

I'm glad Andrea Dworkin is dead and I wish my racist, classist, heterosexist 2nd wave professor would follow suit. Down with Frances Olsen! Up with a hot chick teaching the class!

With every kiss my heart breaks a little more. I guess I could be healing but it'd be a lie If I said I had moved on. The truth is I still hold on, not as much as I used to though. I love you enough to know that the love you have for each other is more important than any love I can give you and if she makes you happy that's really all that mattters ( Read more... )

My car got broken into...I need another CD player. 200 of my CD's are gone. My music is my life and they've taken my life ( Read more... )

"we'll stock up on canned goods and move to

the woods we'll find a piece of land and quit this fucking band i love you baby i

love you"

Tonight you broke my heart. Who can blame you? We all want to be loved.

How could it end like this? Why did this have to happen like it did? Was it cruelty or irgnorance and inebriation? It wasn't love. Love isn't like this. Will you talk to me in the morning?

It's amazing how one smile can captivate my mind. If there's beauty in everything, that beauty is hiding. It's amazing how I'm stupid enough to see through the lines and still set myself up to be destroyed. It's a slow process to bring my back into reality. To establish a routine again. But soon I will forget what love is like I always do. I'll ( Read more... )

Why does it feel like last year all over again? And the year before that too? Fuck the fall. I just dig myself deeper and deeper and reach for the unobtainable everytime. Oh well. Lonely is an emotion I've come to know very well. Lonely will be sticking around for a while.