I have all these ideas but with little means to get there and I don't know how to begin. I just want to begin...to leave behind this life I have created for myself onto something greater, something that I really deserve and am really capable of doing. I'm tired of allowing myself to be 3rd rate. I need to go out on my own and really thrive...really ( Read more... )

There's a crumbling difference between what is wrong and what is right in my life.

End o' semester fun has really begun. On Friday night I went to Happy Hour with the terrorists. Brian almost vomitted on me but instead it went all over the floor in the middle of The Dizzy Lizard. It was Jutter's Birthday Happy Hour. Sooo fun. James was even there with Amanda...shocking! She got wasted pretty fast though so he had to bounce. ( Read more... )

I love how I go back and forth so much. But right now....right now I'm happier than anyone.

Nope, I can't do this again. I won't. It's not good for me. I need some kind of normalcy for once!

I just can't stop myself no matter how hard I resist. I think of that line in Closer when Natalie Portman says, "There's a moment, there's always a moment, "I can do this, I can give into this, or I can resist it." When was my moment? And if there was one I def didn't resist. Oh well. Life is like this. I had come into this semester with the ( Read more... )

I feel completely sedated right now but unable to sleep. Its a strange feeling. My mind is so bored. I crave stimulation but I have no idea where to find it. It's snowing outside and I just want to go outside and play but I'm sick and its cold. I'm constantly craving for a companion. I rely so heavily on boys to make me happy. All I want is to be ( Read more... )

2005 is almost over so I figured it was time to do the good old livejournal year in review.  I'd have to say it was a great year. I had some trouble here and there but it provided me with an incredible learning experience that I would never wish to take back. I feel like I've really grown as a person this year. I've become more in touch with myself ( Read more... )

I dyed my hair bright red again. I like it...aside from the chunk of hair that I always seem to miss. So now I have flaming  hair with an orangish brown streak running down the back of my head. Sweeeet.

Thanksgiving back in South Side was nice. Lots of beer, bud, and of course T-giving treats. I endulged in extremely excessive amounts of all ( Read more... )

Its been snowing on and off in PA since I got here on Wednesday evening. I rode home with Bryn and the traffic was horrible. Her house was gorgeous.  Wednesday night I went over to Zachy's house with Dahl, Adam, Pat, Brady, Kyle, Steve, Michelle, and Nick. Dahl has a beard now, its freaking me out. I went over to Heather's yesterday and we took an ( Read more... )